最熟悉的陌生人

還記得嗎
窗外那被月光染亮的海洋
你還記得嗎
是愛讓彼此把夜點亮

為何後來我們
用沉默替代依賴
曾經朗朗星空
漸漸陰霾

心碎離開
轉身回到最初荒涼裡等待
為了寂寞
是否找個人填心中空白

我們變成了世上
最熟悉的陌生人
今後各自曲折
各自悲哀

只怪我們愛得那麼洶湧
愛得那麼深
於是夢醒了 擱淺了沉默了 揮手了
卻回不了神

如果當初在交會時能忍住了
激動的靈魂
也許今夜我不會讓
自己在思念裡 沉淪

I think this is the best way to describe us now?

Its been a year and more,

still haven't really get used to the way we've become,

I know, its just me, you don't have this problem at all..

我的歌声里

没有一点点 防备，也没有 一 丝 顾虑

你就这样出现在我的世界里，带给我惊喜，情不自已

可是你偏又这样，在我不知不觉中

悄悄 的消失， 从我 的世界里，没有音讯，剩下的 只是回忆

你存在，我深深的脑海里，我的梦里，我的心里，我的歌声里

还记得我们曾经， 肩并肩 一 起走过，那段繁华巷口

尽管你我是陌生人， 是过路人，但彼此还是感觉到了对方的

一个眼神，一个心跳

一 种意想不到的快乐，好像是

一 场梦境， 命中注定

世界之 大 为何我们相遇

难道是缘分?

难道是天意?

this....this is.....

I dont know what feeling is this, this weird feeling... this emptiness this oblivion,

the feeling of something missing, some void in my heart,

everytime theres news about you,

random news, anything at all,

can make me feel weird, lost, anxious, excited, crazy,

why?

do you feel the same?

its been so long anyway,

almost a year now,

are you really the one?

or am I the crazy one?

bored....

So bored recently.... life without school is really dull sometimes...

eat sleep play eat sleep play rinse and repeat.. sigh...

the working experience at Great Eastern was really fun...

learnt some new stuff...

met some new people...

definitely doing it again if given another chance...

haih... hope to start my course soon...

那些年，我最快樂的日子

so fast..one year.. just passed like that..
1 year since confessing to you...
to the start of our relationship..

so much to say....
but I guess things are better left unsaid...
I know you wouldn't like it anyway that I keep holding on to the past...

Thank You so much for the memories...
For now, until I don't know when..
You still are the queen of my heart..
Maybe, just maybe...
You'll always be my 沈佳宜 =)

The Video

So fast.. Almost 1 year le...

Too bad it ended long ago..

I still remember...

The video..

I did it.. the first time I ever made a video..

I made it for you =)

很爱过

谢谢你从来没有觉得我不够好
谢谢你守护我的每一分每一秒
谢谢当天塌下来 你也会帮我顶着
冰的固执 水才会懂
终於让时间回过头来笑我们傻
但暴雨都要淋过才能逼得人成长
没有地久没有天长 没有最美的花
只有遗忘 能让眼泪流光
很爱过 很痛过 我们为了彼此而活过
我爱你 拥抱着你 却让你看不见星空
我们都 没有错 没有谁比较寂寞
你的世界早已经不是以前

也许以后再也没人比你更爱我
也许以后我也不可能再那样活
每当想起你的时候 快乐都比较多
也许快乐 是时间的幽默
很爱过 很痛过 我们为了彼此而活过
我爱你 拥抱着你 却让你看不见星空
我们都 没有错 没有谁比较寂寞
你的世界早已经不是以前
多少天 多少夜 爱一个人很难 爱自己更难
清晨醒来所有美梦都不见
很爱过 很痛过 我们为了彼此而活过
我爱你 拥抱着你 却让你看不见星空
我们都 没有错 没有谁比较寂寞
你的世界早已经不是以前

Metamorphosis

I can feel I changed a lot since that day,

A lot of thing has changed as well,

I'm not who I'm used to be,

You are not who you used to be,

I hate us now, but I know we can't bring the past back,

At least you're living a happy life now,

It doesn't really matter I'm stuck,

Well, you used to care, but its obvious you don't anymore..

Life has been terribly difficult,

Emo nights missing you,

Days with bad mood,

my luck seems to have changed for the worse too,

I even have difficulty deciding whether to go to the coming class trip..

I don't know what has happened between us,

We can't just seem to be friends back like other couples who broke up,

But you seem to be okay with it, that you don't really care,

Maybe its just my problem..

Things will never ever be the same..

Unfair

Sometimes, life is just very unfair...
People can do whatever they want, but you can't...
People make decisions that affect you, without giving you a damn..
But all you can do...
Is keep moving on, don't let all those things affect you,
carry on marching forward, towards a better day...

You can never stop the rain by complaining...

One Week

It has been a week,
Its feels like longer though,
Not really easy for me...

Are you?

Somehow I have a feeling like you are avoiding me..
Is it true?
If yes, how are we going to be friends back??
I hope its just that I'm thinking too much..
If it is real, I also don't know what to do, coz I'm confused...

Final Act of Love

It is clear to me what is your wish and decision..
I cannot guarantee I can fulfill each and every of the terms..
But I can guarantee you the main term will be accomplished..

I might still be in love with you for a long time to come,
Or maybe even forget it as fast as the next day,
But rest assured it will not be known, it will only be known to me,
I could not promise to say I will love you forever and wait for you till the end of time,
Because I am only human, a weak one with strong feelings,
But please know that I have loved you deeply..

Is this my final act of love?
Maybe, I think so,
But still I cannot be 100% sure..
As you always say, we wont know what will happen in the future,
There might be some twists of fate that might one day bring us back together,
But all these we could not be sure..

You can go and live the live you've always wanted now,
And I can start rebuilding mine
I will not bother you again, nor make you feel bad nor sad.
That is my promise to myself. One I hope I can honour.

All good things must come to an end...

I guess this is the end then..
I hoped for the opposite, but you're not in the same opinion..
So I guess we can't be together anymore..

Honestly,
Its all so sudden and came as a shock to me..
Just a few days before we were watching Mr.Popper's Penguins happily..
Den on Saturday you mentioned it..
I tried to hope for the best, hope it was just a phase you're going through, but it turned out otherwise..
In my heart..when I read that message, the preparations are already made..
Eventhough we agreed to solve this once your account test ends, but sorry, I'm not strong enough..
During that period before today, I was in disarray, I had no appetite, I had difficulties sleeping..
the reason I went to karaoke with my friends was because I was too unhappy at home..
On Sunday afternoon, i can't take it anymore, I cried, I feel like my whole world came crashing down.. I then told Yu Pei and Jing Ying and in the night I told Xin Di.. to see if they have a clue of whats happening.. or can tell me what to do..I seem so lost..

Today,
I tried to be happy and normal, I din receive message from you saying that you reach college like normal..I got worried so I went to canteen 1 to check, you were there.. I asked you why you din send me sms.. U said you forgotten and you also just informed mami.. I don't know whether true or not.
During the break I though of our memories together, tears flowed..
Then I talked to Yu Pei and Winnie about it, the tears flowed again..
I had a hard time trying to hold on, I then decided to settle this today..
During the time you, Aki and Peki was discussing, my tears flowed again..

Honestly, I dont know why wont you discuss things with me..I was disappointed
It was our relationship afterall, and we should talk and try to settle things out..
Not that I dont allow you to discuss with other people, just that I fell we need to talk face to face as well..

But its ok now, Its all over..
Tears are still flowing,
Sorry I'm not as strong as you,
Just want you to know that I really care about and love you..
Truly, Deeply from my Heart..

My World..came crashing down..

In relationships..there are always hard times..
Times when you feel like giving up..
Times when you've almost break up with you loved one..
These hard times are the test of the strength of relationships..
Sometimes failure in this test does not mean the end of the relationship..

Maybe after breaking up.. Only will we find out that we do need each other..
Because sometimes, you wont appreciate what you have until you've lost it..

Now it is a hard time for us..
We are in the middle of the tunnel..
Will we see the light at the end of the tunnel hand in hand..
Or will we both be at different ends of the tunnel.. walking different paths..

IF we were to walk on different paths..
Will we cross paths someday?

Unhappy Times

Haven't really been feeling happy for the past few weeks..
Where has the happy gone to?
Always feeling emo..
Always feeling lonely..
Always dont feel like doing anything..
Doesnt feel like me anymore...

Things are always not going smoothly..
Lots of resistance..
Lots of pressure..

Sometimes, I just feel so tired...

Bad Day

Thanks for ruining everything..
Hate you...
stupid..

Tick Tock

Tick Tock..
Tick Tock..
Tick Tock..

The hour draws near..

Tick Tock..
Tick Tock..
Tick Tock..

Will I survive?

Save me...

You've walked too far to turn back..
Time is slipping..
You had all the time you need to do what is necessary..
Yet you did not do enough..
And now here you are..
Sunlight draws closer..
Your heart pounds..
FAILURE, your biggest FEAR, eating away at you..
Words of comfort and support, helps a little, filling the worry inside..
Less than 10 hours left..

SAVE ME.....

Bliss

That cozy living room..
Those horror movies..
That comfy sofa..
That cup of 100 plus..
That bowl of fruit salad..
That packet of snack..
That cone of ice-cream..

Happiness..
You can see it in my eyes..
Did you?
I bet not...
So I'm telling you now..
I am happy during that time =)

Regret

Why do I always have to be like this??
When will I ever learn??
When will I ever change??

Stupid,stupid,stupid,stupid,stupid...