Are you?

Somehow I have a feeling like you are avoiding me..
Is it true?
If yes, how are we going to be friends back??
I hope its just that I'm thinking too much..
If it is real, I also don't know what to do, coz I'm confused...

Final Act of Love

It is clear to me what is your wish and decision..
I cannot guarantee I can fulfill each and every of the terms..
But I can guarantee you the main term will be accomplished..

I might still be in love with you for a long time to come,
Or maybe even forget it as fast as the next day,
But rest assured it will not be known, it will only be known to me,
I could not promise to say I will love you forever and wait for you till the end of time,
Because I am only human, a weak one with strong feelings,
But please know that I have loved you deeply..

Is this my final act of love?
Maybe, I think so,
But still I cannot be 100% sure..
As you always say, we wont know what will happen in the future,
There might be some twists of fate that might one day bring us back together,
But all these we could not be sure..

You can go and live the live you've always wanted now,
And I can start rebuilding mine
I will not bother you again, nor make you feel bad nor sad.
That is my promise to myself. One I hope I can honour.

All good things must come to an end...

I guess this is the end then..
I hoped for the opposite, but you're not in the same opinion..
So I guess we can't be together anymore..

Honestly,
Its all so sudden and came as a shock to me..
Just a few days before we were watching Mr.Popper's Penguins happily..
Den on Saturday you mentioned it..
I tried to hope for the best, hope it was just a phase you're going through, but it turned out otherwise..
In my heart..when I read that message, the preparations are already made..
Eventhough we agreed to solve this once your account test ends, but sorry, I'm not strong enough..
During that period before today, I was in disarray, I had no appetite, I had difficulties sleeping..
the reason I went to karaoke with my friends was because I was too unhappy at home..
On Sunday afternoon, i can't take it anymore, I cried, I feel like my whole world came crashing down.. I then told Yu Pei and Jing Ying and in the night I told Xin Di.. to see if they have a clue of whats happening.. or can tell me what to do..I seem so lost..

Today,
I tried to be happy and normal, I din receive message from you saying that you reach college like normal..I got worried so I went to canteen 1 to check, you were there.. I asked you why you din send me sms.. U said you forgotten and you also just informed mami.. I don't know whether true or not.
During the break I though of our memories together, tears flowed..
Then I talked to Yu Pei and Winnie about it, the tears flowed again..
I had a hard time trying to hold on, I then decided to settle this today..
During the time you, Aki and Peki was discussing, my tears flowed again..

Honestly, I dont know why wont you discuss things with me..I was disappointed
It was our relationship afterall, and we should talk and try to settle things out..
Not that I dont allow you to discuss with other people, just that I fell we need to talk face to face as well..

But its ok now, Its all over..
Tears are still flowing,
Sorry I'm not as strong as you,
Just want you to know that I really care about and love you..
Truly, Deeply from my Heart..

My World..came crashing down..

In relationships..there are always hard times..
Times when you feel like giving up..
Times when you've almost break up with you loved one..
These hard times are the test of the strength of relationships..
Sometimes failure in this test does not mean the end of the relationship..

Maybe after breaking up.. Only will we find out that we do need each other..
Because sometimes, you wont appreciate what you have until you've lost it..

Now it is a hard time for us..
We are in the middle of the tunnel..
Will we see the light at the end of the tunnel hand in hand..
Or will we both be at different ends of the tunnel.. walking different paths..

IF we were to walk on different paths..
Will we cross paths someday?