Memories..

Jz got my pc back..
Switched the motherboard and RAM..
Cost 200++..

Opened my back-up files..
There's a file called chat log..
Opened it..
Looked at it..

OMG..eyes wet liao..
The chat logs brings back memories..
The sweet and warm chats..
The feel..
The words..
The days..
Will never comeback..

Where is it all gone?
Disappear suddenly..
Without a trace..

Now..
I jz hope we could be frenz..
Jz dunno y I keep thinking..
The negative way..
Avoiding me?
I knoe u promissed u will never..
Even if not together..
Keep distance?
U also said u'd never..
But will onli if I'm deeply hurt..
Which I'm not..
And you knew it..

I rili hope we could be frenz..
Why am I feeling that u are more cold towards me now?
Where's friendliness?
Like the 3 years b4?
Like in form 1..
form 2..
form 3..
earlier this year?
during camp?
during perlantikan?
when I hurt my foot?
jz thinking all this makes my eyes wet..

Can we be friends?
Like in form 1?
form 2?
form 3?
earlier this year?
helping each other's problems?
care abt each other?

I called you because I had something important to tell u..
Nothing else..
Jz to inform you something..
Not trying to get closer..
Not trying to get together again..
I jz wanted to tell the important things..
I asked a lil bit more questions..
Coz I was boring..nothing to do..
Jz hope to find someone to talk to..
To cure the loneliness and boringness..
Nothing more..
U dun have to be scared..
And its just so 'ngam' that I called..
On the 2 days that u din on9..
Jz so 'ngam' that I had important things to tell you..
U dun have to be scared..

Mayb I'm jz overacting..
Coz I knoe u are having your own problems now..
I know you were having 'no mood' days..
Mayb thats y you are more cold towards me..
I understand..
But still..I dunno y..
I cannot control my thoughts..

Do you remember?
The days that we chatted?
The feel?
The friendship?
The caring?
Can you tell me..Is it all gone?
Will it ever come back?

Please..
I jz hope to be frenz..
Dun be so cold towards me..
Dun avoid me..
It'll oni hurt me more..

I rili dunno..
If I'm jz thinking those..
Or are u rili doing it?

Please..
Let's just return to the way it was b4..
The 3 years..
Form 1..
Form 2..
Form 3..
Earlier this year..
Bring back all the caring..
Bring back all the hi's..bye's..
Good morning's..
All the hitting me and sadiq..
All the 'i zat u' 'u zat me'..
All the ' i play u' 'u play me'..
All the 'i help u' 'u help me'..
Please..bring it all back to this beautiful friendship..
omg...eyes rili wet now..
Please..bring it all back..
To this special friendship that we have..
I don't want it to become this special friendship that we "HAD"..
I dun want it to be past tense..
I want it to last forever..
Like all the friendship that I cherish..

I'm rili jz trying to be frenz..
I hope u are reading this..
I rili hope so..

If you think we could not be friends anymore..
I'll understand..
Jz..Wish You Happy Always..
Wish You Happy Birthday..
Wish You Good Morning..
Good Night..
Good Bye..
Happy New Year..
Happy Chinese New Year..
Selamat Hari Raya..
Happy Deepavali..
Merry Christmas..
Happy Valentine's Day..
Happy Holidays..
And whatever that needs wishing..
Wish you all these..

But most importantly..
Happy Always..
Dun Be Sad..

I'm rili sorry..
If I caused you troubles..
Gave you problems..
Made you restless..
Made you worried..

Its ok now..
I've said what I wanted to say..
I've said all I need..
Jz..
I rili hope this friendship lasts forever..
I rili do..

I'd hate it..
If I lost a friendship..
Built in 3 years..
And going strong..
But crumbled..
Smashed..
Broken..
Jz becoz..
I can't control my feelings..
I'm so useless..
I dun feel like a man..
I dun feel like a boy..
I dunno what I am now..

UNITED

WOOT!!!

Thats my new United Home Kit..

Thanks Dad!!

Emo..

Past few weeks hav been quite emo..
Cried..
Laughed..
Happy-ed..
Sad..
Disappointed..
Happy again..
And many many emos mixed together..

But..
Its all over now..
But the things that happened will all be in my memories..
Tucked deep inside my heart..
For always..I will remember..
And cherish..

Thank You..

Run..Walk..Crawl..

Since that dream..

Can't sleep...

Kept tossing and turning in bed....

Had nothing better to do..

So I thought..

Why not wake up and go jog or something..

I jogged for a while..

Then can't take it anymore..

I started walking..

Feet hurting..

I thought..

If I can't walk anymore..

I'll crawl back home..

Started at 5 a.m..

Got home by 7 a.m..

Jog/Walked for 2 hours..

Did it at the housing area..

Which she was in..

Will she see me?

Dun think so..

Oni a few days left..

Took these pic while there..

Wow...

Full moon...

I guess if I had not go out..

I won't even notice..

Since the weather's cooler..

And the quietness of the morning calms me..

I think I'll try to do it everyday..

Dream...

Now its 3 something close to 4 in the morning..
I jz had a dream..
Something scary..
I don't know whether it is real..
I hope not..
I never knew dreams could be so scary..

Its like this..

There's this girl that I like..
It started when I opened her wallet..
I saw a part of it was a lot of stickers..
I removed the stickers..
I saw a mykad..

In it a pic of the owner..
Quite handsome..
Age of around 20something..
Don't know why..but I can see..
From that pic that he's rich..

Then fast forward to a few days later..
The girl called the guy..
(Don't know how since there's no tel. number on mykads)
To return the card..
He arrived in a black BMW..
A sign that he's rich..

Then the girl and the guy kinda..
Got together..
They were very happy..

And then I woke up..
Dazed..Blurred..and cold..
I reached for my hp on the side..
It was around 3.27 a.m..

I tried to go back to sleep..
But I couldn't...
I jz lied there on the bed..
And stared at the fan..
And stared at the ceiling..

Then I decided to go downstairs..
Get a drink..
Then blog about this..

Is this jz a dream..
Or is it like..
A preview of the future?

THAT MAN IN THE MYKAD
IS NOT ME!!

SERIOUSLY!!

I knoe..
If it was real..
I should not be selfish..
And should hope the girl..
And the guy..
They stay together and happy forever..

But I...

FAST!!

Woah..
Is it juz me..
Or did you all see it too..

Is my eyes getting slower..
Or is my plasma screen on the fritz..
Or is the game actually faster..

It was so fast..
You couldn't even see the ball on replay anymore..
The players were running so fast..
Are they on steroids?

1-1..
Haiz..ok lar..bt still..
I tot we could win..

Campbell..Campbell..Campbell..
So..so..so..unlucky..
Made Given save with his head..LOL

Sure hope we can do better next time..
And I still haven't got my UNITED kit..

EPL is BACK!!

Finally the wait is over..
EPL is back...

Lets see what will happen this season..
Big Phil at Stamford Bridge..
Samir Nasri at Emirates..
Torres on high after Euro '08 in Anfield..

Lets see what'll happen when Fergie meets Big Phil..

YEAH!!

Still hope dad doesn't break his promise..
To get me the AIG United home kit..
Kinda bored wearing the Vodafone 1..so lame..

NICE JOB!!

NICE JOB!!
WELL DONE!!
CONGRATZ!!!

WELL DONE BOON!!

BUSTED UR PC JZ AS THE HOLIDAYS ARE COMING..
WHAT ARE YOU GOIN TO PLAY NOW?
PUNCH THE WALL?
WHACK THE FLY?
WALKING AROUND AIMLESSLY?

Haiz..busted my pc..
And holidays jz around the corner..
Wan play wat now?
Can't even on9..

Now using old pc..
Jaring...damn slow..
Sloppy graphics..
Laggy comp..

Y does this have to happen to me?
Damn bad luck..
Haiz...
Hopefully its jz software problem..
If its hardware problem...

HAIZ!!!!!!!

More n More Like This Song..

More n more like this song..
A certain someone sent it to me..thanks..
I oredi know wat it means..


对你有感觉
歌手：江美琪 专辑：爱哭鬼

我曾深刻体会
对爱感到胆怯
还好有懂我的你
给我安慰

看你失落的脸
又再为爱憔悴
我心痛的感觉竟如此的强烈

眼角的泪
它给过谁
伤透了心
也无所谓
我会愿意
静静地
陪在你身边

如果说爱
已不可为
那我宁愿
藏心里面
其实我害怕会失去你的感觉

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着犹豫不决
没准备
跨越爱的界线

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
进与退
被爱包围
谁犯规
都狼狈
谁能解围
让一切完美

怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
你和我
拥抱瞬间
不后悔
这暧昧
星光唯美
把爱放心里面

Fun and Tiring

Today my persatuan held a tahan lasak activity..
My station was simple..
All they had to do was roll on the ground..
Of course..I'm not gonna let them off easy..
They had to roll on ground..filled with mud..
And get splashed with water by me..LOL

A lot of them did not dare to do this activity..
Including the boys..sissies..
When I was in primary school..
I had to crawl n roll in mud..
Under a barb wire fence..
Damn..these kids hav it easy these days..XD

Another station's mission is..
Have them eat certain amounts of food in 40 secs..
The foods are biscuits,yee mee(not cooked),and bread..
And also..mineral water+ketchup..LOL

Then there's a station where..
They need to cross a beam while swaying a hula hoop..
Damn hard..
But someone managed to do it with ease..

But the best of all is..
The last 1..
Where they had to 'masuk baris'..
Then in barisan they cannot move..
So we gather at the top of the building..
And splashed water down at them..LOL
All wet like hell..XD

Today even non-members of the persatuan helped..
Kar Yee & Pei Pei helped form the start..
Right from helping me with the mud..
To splashing water down at them..
The scout's ahli helped too..
Thanks..I appreciate it..

Then after the activities..
Me,Kar yee and Pei Pei went to eat..
Suet Ee joined us oso..
Along with a few of the scouts ahli..

While there..
I suddenly remember a trick Ameer taught me..
It's like this..
U take a straw and clap hard at it..
It will crack the straw..
Then when the person drinks..
He/She won't be drinking..but sucking air..LOL

So I took Pei Pei's glass..
And clapped at the straw..
Kar Yee,Pei Pei and Suet Ee looked at me like..
WTF?!
Then I told Pei Pei to drink..
She start sucking air..We start laughing..
Then I told her wat happened..

She immediately turn around to the scout ahli's table..
Took Kian Loong's glass and hand it to me..I clap again lor..
The she hand it back..
He start sucking air..we laugh again..
They were looking all over the glass..
Blurred..They dunno what happened..
They were like.."eh,why cannot drink edi?"
"Eh,u put wat inside orh?!"...XDXD

Then since they helped me..I belanja-ed them..
Suet Ee did not helped but got blanja too..>.<
Rm 15 fly away..

But the craziest thing that got me worried is..
After clapping Pei Pei's straw..Suet Ee started laughing..
When walking back to skool..oso laughing..
She laughed the whole way..from mamak to skool..
I'm worried I made someone's daughter crazy..

It's a fun but tiring day..