I don't know what I want..
Nor how I feel..
Maybe I still do..
Maybe I'm getting over it slowly..
Maybe there is still a remnant of it left..
Maybe its never gone..
I don't know for sure..
I do notice that sometimes I go out of my way to help..
Sometimes I'm playing it cool..
Sometimes I feel you..
Sometimes I don't
I'm so confused,..
Only time can determine..
And decide whether it needs to be fixed..
Or advance on..
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Sunday, December 26, 2010
真的嗎
離別的話我不想要 現在清楚聽見
而你可以不用回答 什麼都不要說
我的笑容沒有快樂 是否看得出來
昏黃的天別告訴我 快下起雨了
清晨的風貼在臉上 吹乾落下的淚
一整夜的思緒難眠 等待你的回音
愛情沒有太多理由 可以不用要求
但希望你明白了解 真心在這裡
不像你 愛可以 輕鬆
我真的 愛你 愛你
你還是走
I MISS YOU I MISS YOU I MISS YOU
BABY EVERYDAY I MISS YOU
心裡的深處 思念依然在
你真的不再回來
I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU
BABY EVERYDAY I LOVE YOU
不要讓我懂 真的不想懂
想要躺在你胸口
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Killer instinct..
Can you feel it?
The killer instinct,
Every word laced with poison and malice,
Sharp tones,
Fiery vocabulary...
One of the many negatives of me...
The killer instinct,
Every word laced with poison and malice,
Sharp tones,
Fiery vocabulary...
One of the many negatives of me...
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Game
This is a cruel game of life that nobody is exempted from,
Everyone has to play it at some point in life,
Its not actually the same for everyone,
For some, its a nice game, average, or cruel like me..
Why is it cruel?
Always when you are about to lose, and you know it, you're about to give up,
It always give you an opening, a chance that you see,
that can turn the game around,
And you get your hopes up, you go the extra mile,
Only to find that opening slowly closing,
The closer you get, the smaller the opening,
The moment you are there, it closes on you..
The world, just falls upon you,
Large pieces of it,
Crushing you, and slowly those pieces crumble into smaller ones,
And finally turn to dust, blown off from you body,
Taking with it, all of the pressure,
You try to wake up, but..
You're just too tired, you've already taken too much damage,
You just wanna' lie there, not moving, just lie there, static..
Rain has some healing properties to it,
Like a magical elixir, curing everything as it drops on you,
*plop* sadness is gone...
*plop* sickness is gone...
*plop* loneliness is gone..
*plop* fear is gone...
*plop* doubt is gone..
At least that's how I'd like it to be,
Every drop, a magical elixir, washes everything off you,
But in reality, its not, its just water, dropping down from the sky,
Its funny, funny how we can talk so openly about what has happened,
I kept asking questions that all along the answers I already had,
Kept wondering about the future, what if history repeats itself, although it surely will not..
I'm already tired, I know its still early game,
Only restarted a few times, still a long way to go,
I know, but its just, I'm tired, I've had enough, for now...
What will happen in the future?
Your guess is as good as mine...
我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰 拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了想到 快疯掉
死不了就还好
Everyone has to play it at some point in life,
Its not actually the same for everyone,
For some, its a nice game, average, or cruel like me..
Why is it cruel?
Always when you are about to lose, and you know it, you're about to give up,
It always give you an opening, a chance that you see,
that can turn the game around,
And you get your hopes up, you go the extra mile,
Only to find that opening slowly closing,
The closer you get, the smaller the opening,
The moment you are there, it closes on you..
The world, just falls upon you,
Large pieces of it,
Crushing you, and slowly those pieces crumble into smaller ones,
And finally turn to dust, blown off from you body,
Taking with it, all of the pressure,
You try to wake up, but..
You're just too tired, you've already taken too much damage,
You just wanna' lie there, not moving, just lie there, static..
Rain has some healing properties to it,
Like a magical elixir, curing everything as it drops on you,
*plop* sadness is gone...
*plop* sickness is gone...
*plop* loneliness is gone..
*plop* fear is gone...
*plop* doubt is gone..
At least that's how I'd like it to be,
Every drop, a magical elixir, washes everything off you,
But in reality, its not, its just water, dropping down from the sky,
Its funny, funny how we can talk so openly about what has happened,
I kept asking questions that all along the answers I already had,
Kept wondering about the future, what if history repeats itself, although it surely will not..
I'm already tired, I know its still early game,
Only restarted a few times, still a long way to go,
I know, but its just, I'm tired, I've had enough, for now...
What will happen in the future?
Your guess is as good as mine...
我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰 拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了想到 快疯掉
死不了就还好
Friday, December 17, 2010
Room..
Its been raining all day long...
The whole house is under darkness...
No thanks to mum's selection of dark coloured curtains around the house..
Not a sliver of light is let in without turning on the lights..
My room seems to be the darkest room with windows in the house..
With only a 2 part window facing the back of the house where less sunlight is let in and covered with a thick purple curtain letting even less sunlight in..
Not turning on the lights,
The room is very dark and has a sombre mood to it.
People who are not familiar with my room will probably have difficulty walking about,
For almost 3 years living in this house, this room is where I spent most of my time in,
Gaming,chatting,laughing,crying,sleeping,dreaming,homework, and lot s of other things,
My very own personal world where only select people are let in to share a part of my life..
Some say, the ambience of my room, so dark, is best for sleeping..
Some suggest it is a little creepy with a tinge of sinister..
But for me..the mood of the room changes..
When I'm happy, the room seems more comfortable, very airy..
When I'm not, the room is darker than before, sobre, sinister,
The recent turn of events, the emotional roller coaster ride,
The mood of the room, has turned sombre,
There's an air of despair in the room,
I spent a lot of time, thinking, about what has happened, whats going to,
I don't know why I can't just get over it...
I seem to be languishing around...
The more I stay behind these four walls..
The more I'm losing my mind..
It gets boring here,
The rain dampens the mood,
My sister keeps playing 'Officially Missing You'
The sleepless nights,
I'm losing my mind,
Behind these walls..
The whole house is under darkness...
No thanks to mum's selection of dark coloured curtains around the house..
Not a sliver of light is let in without turning on the lights..
My room seems to be the darkest room with windows in the house..
With only a 2 part window facing the back of the house where less sunlight is let in and covered with a thick purple curtain letting even less sunlight in..
Not turning on the lights,
The room is very dark and has a sombre mood to it.
People who are not familiar with my room will probably have difficulty walking about,
For almost 3 years living in this house, this room is where I spent most of my time in,
Gaming,chatting,laughing,crying,sleeping,dreaming,homework, and lot s of other things,
My very own personal world where only select people are let in to share a part of my life..
Some say, the ambience of my room, so dark, is best for sleeping..
Some suggest it is a little creepy with a tinge of sinister..
But for me..the mood of the room changes..
When I'm happy, the room seems more comfortable, very airy..
When I'm not, the room is darker than before, sobre, sinister,
The recent turn of events, the emotional roller coaster ride,
The mood of the room, has turned sombre,
There's an air of despair in the room,
I spent a lot of time, thinking, about what has happened, whats going to,
I don't know why I can't just get over it...
I seem to be languishing around...
The more I stay behind these four walls..
The more I'm losing my mind..
It gets boring here,
The rain dampens the mood,
My sister keeps playing 'Officially Missing You'
The sleepless nights,
I'm losing my mind,
Behind these walls..
Dan Sebenarnya..
Oh bulan,
Enggan melayan diriku lagi,
Pabila air mata membasahi pipi,
Dan lagu-lagu di radio,
Seolah-olah memerli aku,
Pabila kau bersama yang lain,
Adakah perasaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta,
Yang masih, bersemadi untukmu,
Dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan disebalik senyumanmu itu,
Kau juga, merindui aku,
Ku enggan,
Berpura-pura ku bahagia,
Ku enggan,
Melihat kau bersama si dia,
Oh ku akui cemburu,
Mula menular dalam diri,
Pabila kau bersama yang lain,
Adakah perasaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta,
Yang masih, bersemadi untuk mu,
Dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan disebalik senyumanmu itu,
Kau juga merindui aku.
Pabila kau merenung matanya,
Ku rebah, jatuh ke bumi,
Disaat kau benar-benar mahu pergi,
Seperti bernafas dalam air,
Adakah perasaan benci ini sebernarnya cinta,
Yang masih, bersemadi untukmu,
Dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan disebalik senyumanmu itu,
Kau juga, merindui aku,
Dan sebenarnya,
Dan sebenarnya,
Aku rindu,
Dan sebenarnya,
Dan sebenarnya,
Aku tak mampu..
Tanpa mu....
* Its funny how I can almost always relate to songs
**And as the lyrics goes.. I'm jealous, of you, going to Giza with him.. >.<
Enggan melayan diriku lagi,
Pabila air mata membasahi pipi,
Dan lagu-lagu di radio,
Seolah-olah memerli aku,
Pabila kau bersama yang lain,
Adakah perasaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta,
Yang masih, bersemadi untukmu,
Dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan disebalik senyumanmu itu,
Kau juga, merindui aku,
Ku enggan,
Berpura-pura ku bahagia,
Ku enggan,
Melihat kau bersama si dia,
Oh ku akui cemburu,
Mula menular dalam diri,
Pabila kau bersama yang lain,
Adakah perasaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta,
Yang masih, bersemadi untuk mu,
Dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan disebalik senyumanmu itu,
Kau juga merindui aku.
Pabila kau merenung matanya,
Ku rebah, jatuh ke bumi,
Disaat kau benar-benar mahu pergi,
Seperti bernafas dalam air,
Adakah perasaan benci ini sebernarnya cinta,
Yang masih, bersemadi untukmu,
Dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan disebalik senyumanmu itu,
Kau juga, merindui aku,
Dan sebenarnya,
Dan sebenarnya,
Aku rindu,
Dan sebenarnya,
Dan sebenarnya,
Aku tak mampu..
Tanpa mu....
* Its funny how I can almost always relate to songs
**And as the lyrics goes.. I'm jealous, of you, going to Giza with him.. >.<
Thursday, December 16, 2010
3rd
This is the 3rd post on the same day...
Usually people update their blog to tell about their lives,stories and or events,
But I'm one of those that use my blog as a vent,
To clear all my negativity, release all my frustrations, my feelings,
Rarely about the happy stuff,
That's why I don't write much, cause I'm happy,
But since this is already the 3rd post on the same day,
This means its bad..
There's some kind of niggling feeling inside me,
I can't really tell what it is,
Feels like missing something,
Wanting to do something but don't know what it is,
Feels like a lot to get off my chest,
Feels like a big stone crushing me,
Feels like wanting to talk to someone, but don't know what to talk about,
I'm starting to lose my head,
Why can't I just be those type of guy that can just shrug it off,
Not give a damn, and just walk away,
I hate myself for being like this,
Really not looking forward to sem 2,
I don't know how to face you,
Please get me back to normal,
Please heal me fast,
This is one of the times I just wish I could turn back the time,
And undo everything,
You may like I'm cold towards you,
You may feel like I'm avoiding you,
You may feel like I'm hating you,
But the fact is,
I still do care about you......
Usually people update their blog to tell about their lives,stories and or events,
But I'm one of those that use my blog as a vent,
To clear all my negativity, release all my frustrations, my feelings,
Rarely about the happy stuff,
That's why I don't write much, cause I'm happy,
But since this is already the 3rd post on the same day,
This means its bad..
There's some kind of niggling feeling inside me,
I can't really tell what it is,
Feels like missing something,
Wanting to do something but don't know what it is,
Feels like a lot to get off my chest,
Feels like a big stone crushing me,
Feels like wanting to talk to someone, but don't know what to talk about,
I'm starting to lose my head,
Why can't I just be those type of guy that can just shrug it off,
Not give a damn, and just walk away,
I hate myself for being like this,
Really not looking forward to sem 2,
I don't know how to face you,
Please get me back to normal,
Please heal me fast,
This is one of the times I just wish I could turn back the time,
And undo everything,
You may like I'm cold towards you,
You may feel like I'm avoiding you,
You may feel like I'm hating you,
But the fact is,
I still do care about you......
Miss
I miss talking with you
Chatting with you
The times on the phone
MSN
I wish we can do it all over again
But I'm tongue-tied
I don't know how to start
I'm at a loss...
Chatting with you
The times on the phone
MSN
I wish we can do it all over again
But I'm tongue-tied
I don't know how to start
I'm at a loss...
Against All Odds
How can I just let you walk away,
Just let you leave without a trace?
When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh
You're the only one who really knew me at all,
How can you just walk away from me,
When all I can do is watch you leave?
'Cause we shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears,
You're the only one who really knew me at all,
So take a look at me now,
'Cause its just an empty space,
There's nothing left here to remind me,
But the memory of your face,
So take a look at me now,
And there's just and empty space,
And you coming back to me is the odds,
And that what I've got to face,
I wish I could just make you turn around,
Turn around and see me cry,
There's so much I need to say to you,
So many reasons why,
You're the only one who really knew me at all,
So take a look at now,
Well,there's just an empty space,
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
Just the memory of your face,
So take a look at me now,
'Cause there's just an empty space,
But to wait for you is all I can do,
Is all I can do,
And that's what I've got to face,
Take a good look at me now,
'Cause I'll still be standing here,
And you coming back to me is against all odds,
And its a chance I've got to take,
Chance I've got to take,got to take,
Take a look at me now,
Take a look at me now,
Take a look at me now.
Just let you leave without a trace?
When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh
You're the only one who really knew me at all,
How can you just walk away from me,
When all I can do is watch you leave?
'Cause we shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears,
You're the only one who really knew me at all,
So take a look at me now,
'Cause its just an empty space,
There's nothing left here to remind me,
But the memory of your face,
So take a look at me now,
And there's just and empty space,
And you coming back to me is the odds,
And that what I've got to face,
I wish I could just make you turn around,
Turn around and see me cry,
There's so much I need to say to you,
So many reasons why,
You're the only one who really knew me at all,
So take a look at now,
Well,there's just an empty space,
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
Just the memory of your face,
So take a look at me now,
'Cause there's just an empty space,
But to wait for you is all I can do,
Is all I can do,
And that's what I've got to face,
Take a good look at me now,
'Cause I'll still be standing here,
And you coming back to me is against all odds,
And its a chance I've got to take,
Chance I've got to take,got to take,
Take a look at me now,
Take a look at me now,
Take a look at me now.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Heart Sank
Hmmm.....
The feeling inside was true all along...
All the positives friends gave could only hide it..
Not destroy it...
I think I should really learn to trust my feelings by now..
Maybe more time is what we both needed..
Maybe we need to understand each other more..
I don't know..
But rest assured, my feelings were true..
That I can confirm...
What will happen in the future?
Nobody knows..
I hope we won't be avoiding each other...
The reaction from that is worse than expected..
LOL..I don't know why..
My heart sank...
The feeling inside was true all along...
All the positives friends gave could only hide it..
Not destroy it...
I think I should really learn to trust my feelings by now..
Maybe more time is what we both needed..
Maybe we need to understand each other more..
I don't know..
But rest assured, my feelings were true..
That I can confirm...
What will happen in the future?
Nobody knows..
I hope we won't be avoiding each other...
The reaction from that is worse than expected..
LOL..I don't know why..
My heart sank...
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Class Trip
Went on a class trip to Genting with most of the AN11B gang..
One of the best trips ever..
I even felt reluctant to leave after the trip..
Felt as if 3days and 2nights were not enough..
I wished we were there for longer..
And more of the classmates were there...
We stated at Ria Apartment..
17414 the number on the door..
Where memories lie..
Where we lived as a family..
Shared fun times...
It was during this trip that I discovered something..
The feelings that I felt before...
Attraction,closeness a certain bond..
To this one classmate..
LEW ZHI KUAN..
I HAVE FALLEN FOR YOU..
One of the best trips ever..
I even felt reluctant to leave after the trip..
Felt as if 3days and 2nights were not enough..
I wished we were there for longer..
And more of the classmates were there...
We stated at Ria Apartment..
17414 the number on the door..
Where memories lie..
Where we lived as a family..
Shared fun times...
It was during this trip that I discovered something..
The feelings that I felt before...
Attraction,closeness a certain bond..
To this one classmate..
LEW ZHI KUAN..
I HAVE FALLEN FOR YOU..
Monday, November 22, 2010
Happenings
These are basically what happened over the past few weeks..
Went to 1U with Yu Pei, Man Lei, Pei Cze, Wei Jiu and Shirley...
Walked around for the whole day and had dinner..
Went to BBQ at Pui Mun's house with Zhi Kuan, Xiao Ying, Mae Jane, Aki, Mokey, Yu Pei, Man Lei, Suet Ling..
Fun and crazy night..
Went to Zoo Negara with Zhi Kuan, Suet Ling, Yu Pei, Mae Jane and Meng Wei..
Fun and tiring day..
Lots of inside jokes created..
The classmates are getting more and more fun...
I used to think this class sucks...
Guess I'm wrong..
Can't wait for the class trip..
And Sem 2..
Went to 1U with Yu Pei, Man Lei, Pei Cze, Wei Jiu and Shirley...
Walked around for the whole day and had dinner..
Went to BBQ at Pui Mun's house with Zhi Kuan, Xiao Ying, Mae Jane, Aki, Mokey, Yu Pei, Man Lei, Suet Ling..
Fun and crazy night..
Went to Zoo Negara with Zhi Kuan, Suet Ling, Yu Pei, Mae Jane and Meng Wei..
Fun and tiring day..
Lots of inside jokes created..
The classmates are getting more and more fun...
I used to think this class sucks...
Guess I'm wrong..
Can't wait for the class trip..
And Sem 2..
Friday, November 12, 2010
Good Mood
The flowers in the porch seems more colourful..
The weather is just right..
Everything seems just right..
Why?
People succeeded in retaining their scholarships? No
People failed to retain their scholarship? Hell No
High marks for GP? No
Nice movie? No
Songs I'm listening to? No
Fell in love? No
Have a crush on someone? No
Pranked someone bad? No
Badminton? No
I don't know the reason..
But I'm just in a good mood..
Haven't felt like this in a long time...
So why suddenly like this?
I don't know...
Sometimes I feel people don't understand me...
But that's ok...
Coz' I don't understand myself too...
HAHAHA....
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Training
Long time din play football adi...
Getting more and more sucky..
0% fitness...
Monday start official training with college team..
Although I'm not a part of the team...
I'll just go join as exercise and to learn something..
According to Kenny..the first thing we gonna get is 10 rounds..
Walaoeh...play 1 full match without pancit and cramp oso hard..
10 rounds? I'm Gonna DIEE!!!
LOL! Let's do it anyway... to keep fit...
Alright... Let's get the training started...
Monday, October 18, 2010
Again..
It's acting up again... Why? Is it real..or just temprary? I don't know..
I suspecting something because of the reactions I'm getting..
Felt a lil bit sour when she says she most proabably is gonna change class next sem..
I normally won't even give a damn..So why I do now?
Sometimes I feel like starting new..
Sometimes I feel its not right..
A friend knew I might have something..
Helped spy..She say there's nothing..
I should be happy..
I'm not happy..nor sad..
Just a lil bit relieved and disappointed..
Why?!
I suspecting something because of the reactions I'm getting..
Felt a lil bit sour when she says she most proabably is gonna change class next sem..
I normally won't even give a damn..So why I do now?
Sometimes I feel like starting new..
Sometimes I feel its not right..
A friend knew I might have something..
Helped spy..She say there's nothing..
I should be happy..
I'm not happy..nor sad..
Just a lil bit relieved and disappointed..
Why?!
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Issues
Been having issues lately. Noticed that I am much more ruder than I was before, much more insentive to other people, and my already bad temper has became more and more volatile. I don't now why this is happening. Seems like I'm not forgiving and forgetting, seems like I'm harbouring every sick and twisted thoughs and feelings in myself and releasing it so that it affect the people that are close to me..people that I love,loved and still love.
Believe me when I say I did not choose to be this way. I really care for my family and friends. I know when she comments on my things in FB I'm actually very happy.. But seriously I don't know why everytime I have to be hostile in replying her comments. Feels like I want to hurt her with my sharp words and remarks. Feels like I have the intention to kill, but actually I do still very much care about her, I promised not to open and 'stalk' her FB but in reality I still do every now and then,look at her pictures,what she commented. But why do I have to be hostile towards her every single time she comments?
Days ago..she commented again..and I was hostile again. She then wrote on her FB 'Now I'm sure my decision was not a mistake ^^' or something like that. Upon reading that my heart felt burning, eyes felt tearing, the demons in my body that seems to be taking over felt exorcised. Feels like a stake have been driven through my heart. Made me realise how much of a jerk I was to the person that I loved and still love. I don't know if that comment was directed at me or I was just overloaded with guilt. But it really made me realised I have changed alot since the day we split.
I really wish I could change back to the way I was before.
As for her comment..
Its most probably about me..
And I can confirm that her decision was not a mistake.
Believe me when I say I did not choose to be this way. I really care for my family and friends. I know when she comments on my things in FB I'm actually very happy.. But seriously I don't know why everytime I have to be hostile in replying her comments. Feels like I want to hurt her with my sharp words and remarks. Feels like I have the intention to kill, but actually I do still very much care about her, I promised not to open and 'stalk' her FB but in reality I still do every now and then,look at her pictures,what she commented. But why do I have to be hostile towards her every single time she comments?
Days ago..she commented again..and I was hostile again. She then wrote on her FB 'Now I'm sure my decision was not a mistake ^^' or something like that. Upon reading that my heart felt burning, eyes felt tearing, the demons in my body that seems to be taking over felt exorcised. Feels like a stake have been driven through my heart. Made me realise how much of a jerk I was to the person that I loved and still love. I don't know if that comment was directed at me or I was just overloaded with guilt. But it really made me realised I have changed alot since the day we split.
I really wish I could change back to the way I was before.
As for her comment..
Its most probably about me..
And I can confirm that her decision was not a mistake.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
如果这就是爱情 If This Is Love
你做了选择 对的错的
You've made the decision Right or wrong
我只能承认 心是痛的
I can only admit My heart is in pain
怀疑你舍得
Suspected that you are willing to
我被伤的那么深
I am deeply hurt
就放声哭了 何必再强忍
Just cry it out There's no need to resist
我没有选择 我不再完整
I don't have a choice I am no longer complete
原来最后的吻 如此冰冷
The last kiss Was actually so cold
你只能默认 我要被割舍
You can only silently agree I am going to be given up
眼看着 你走了
My eyes watched You left
如果这不是结局
If this is not the end
如果我还爱你
If I still love you
如果我愿相信
If I am willing to believe
你就是唯一
You are the only one
如果你听到这里
If you hear this
如果你依然放弃
If you still give up
那这就是爱情
Then this is love
我难以抗拒
How am I willing to resist
如果这就是爱情
If this is love
本来就不公平
It was never fair
你不需要讲理
You don't need to reason
我可以离去
I can leave
如果我成全了你
If I can grant you your wish
如果我能祝福你
If I can bless you
那不是我看清
It's not that I've realised
是我证明 我爱你
It's that I've proved I love you
灰色的天空 无法猜透
The grey sky Unable to complete guess
多余的眼泪 无法挽留
The unnecessary tears Unable to persuade you to stay
什么都牵动 感觉真的好脆弱
Anything can be affected Feeling very weak
被呵护的人
The blessed person
原来不是我
Actually was not me
我不要你走 我不想放手
I don't want you to go I don't want to let go
却又不能够奢求
Yet again I cannot request
同情的温柔
Kindness out of pity
你可以自由 我愿意承受
You can have freedom I am willing to grow up
把昨天 留给我
Yesterday Leave it for me
如果这不是结局
If this is not the end
如果我还爱你
If I still love you
如果我愿相信
If I am willing to believe
你就是唯一
You are the only one
如果你听到这里
If you hear this
如果你依然放弃
If you still give up
那这就是爱情
Then this is love
我难以抗拒
How am I willing to resist
如果这就是爱情
If this is love
本来就不公平
It was never fair
你不需要讲理
You don't need to reason
我可以离去
I can leave
如果我成全了你
If I can grant you your wish
如果我能祝福你
If I can bless you
那不是我看清
It's not that I've realised
是我证明 我爱你
It's that I've proved I love you
You've made the decision Right or wrong
我只能承认 心是痛的
I can only admit My heart is in pain
怀疑你舍得
Suspected that you are willing to
我被伤的那么深
I am deeply hurt
就放声哭了 何必再强忍
Just cry it out There's no need to resist
我没有选择 我不再完整
I don't have a choice I am no longer complete
原来最后的吻 如此冰冷
The last kiss Was actually so cold
你只能默认 我要被割舍
You can only silently agree I am going to be given up
眼看着 你走了
My eyes watched You left
如果这不是结局
If this is not the end
如果我还爱你
If I still love you
如果我愿相信
If I am willing to believe
你就是唯一
You are the only one
如果你听到这里
If you hear this
如果你依然放弃
If you still give up
那这就是爱情
Then this is love
我难以抗拒
How am I willing to resist
如果这就是爱情
If this is love
本来就不公平
It was never fair
你不需要讲理
You don't need to reason
我可以离去
I can leave
如果我成全了你
If I can grant you your wish
如果我能祝福你
If I can bless you
那不是我看清
It's not that I've realised
是我证明 我爱你
It's that I've proved I love you
灰色的天空 无法猜透
The grey sky Unable to complete guess
多余的眼泪 无法挽留
The unnecessary tears Unable to persuade you to stay
什么都牵动 感觉真的好脆弱
Anything can be affected Feeling very weak
被呵护的人
The blessed person
原来不是我
Actually was not me
我不要你走 我不想放手
I don't want you to go I don't want to let go
却又不能够奢求
Yet again I cannot request
同情的温柔
Kindness out of pity
你可以自由 我愿意承受
You can have freedom I am willing to grow up
把昨天 留给我
Yesterday Leave it for me
如果这不是结局
If this is not the end
如果我还爱你
If I still love you
如果我愿相信
If I am willing to believe
你就是唯一
You are the only one
如果你听到这里
If you hear this
如果你依然放弃
If you still give up
那这就是爱情
Then this is love
我难以抗拒
How am I willing to resist
如果这就是爱情
If this is love
本来就不公平
It was never fair
你不需要讲理
You don't need to reason
我可以离去
I can leave
如果我成全了你
If I can grant you your wish
如果我能祝福你
If I can bless you
那不是我看清
It's not that I've realised
是我证明 我爱你
It's that I've proved I love you
Thursday, September 2, 2010
The lil' box
The small box on the right side of facebook kept showing you all day long..
I've refreshed,clicked home,opened a new tab..signed out signed in..
It still shows you..
Finally I clicked the close button..
It disappeared..
Only for a sudden urge to go look at your profile..
Look at untagged pics of you at your friend's profile..
Your're beautiful as ever..
I can't get you out of my head for this time being..
I'm dead..
It's over..its been over for 3 months already..
All hope is lost and abandoned..
What more do I want?
I do not know..
I just hope I recover..
Which I thought I already did..
I've refreshed,clicked home,opened a new tab..signed out signed in..
It still shows you..
Finally I clicked the close button..
It disappeared..
Only for a sudden urge to go look at your profile..
Look at untagged pics of you at your friend's profile..
Your're beautiful as ever..
I can't get you out of my head for this time being..
I'm dead..
It's over..its been over for 3 months already..
All hope is lost and abandoned..
What more do I want?
I do not know..
I just hope I recover..
Which I thought I already did..
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Birthday??
I received a message wishing me Happy Birthday...
From a person I never even expected..
At a time I did not even think of..
And at 2 whole months before my birthday..
Did I made the mistake..and told you the wrong date?
Or did you made the mistake..recording it on the wrong date..
That message made me confused the whole day..
And stupidly checking the phone over and over again for a reply..
I was so alert I grabbed my phone once it rang..
But as expected..there was none from you..
Congratulations..
You brought those feelings back..
The anxiety of waiting for your replys..
The moments spent together..
Played in my mind..all day long..
From a person I never even expected..
At a time I did not even think of..
And at 2 whole months before my birthday..
Did I made the mistake..and told you the wrong date?
Or did you made the mistake..recording it on the wrong date..
That message made me confused the whole day..
And stupidly checking the phone over and over again for a reply..
I was so alert I grabbed my phone once it rang..
But as expected..there was none from you..
Congratulations..
You brought those feelings back..
The anxiety of waiting for your replys..
The moments spent together..
Played in my mind..all day long..
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!!!!
Why is it that this niggling feeling is still in there..
It is as if its staying inside refusing to die..
It's been 2 months now..
Why is the fucking feeling still there..
Die you stupid feeling..
Die..
It is as if its staying inside refusing to die..
It's been 2 months now..
Why is the fucking feeling still there..
Die you stupid feeling..
Die..
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Monday, July 26, 2010
Words..
Seems like there's nothing left to talk between us..
Temporary? Permanent? I don't know for sure..
There ain't so much for you~
There ain't so much for me~
Anymore~
Temporary? Permanent? I don't know for sure..
There ain't so much for you~
There ain't so much for me~
Anymore~
Monday, July 19, 2010
Life After You
Ten miles from town and I just broke down
Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road
I'm out here alone just tryin' to get home
To tell you I was wrong but you already know
Believe me I won't stop at nothin'
To see you so I've started runnin'
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you
Last time we talked, the night that I walked
Burns like an iron in the back of my mind
I must've been high to say you and I
Weren't meant to be and just wastin' my time
Oh, why did I ever doubt you?
You know I would die here without you
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you
You and I, right or wrong, there's no other one
After this time I spent alone
It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind
Thinkin' 'bout the better times, must've been outta my mind
So I'm runnin' back to tell you
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
Without you God knows what I'd do, yeah
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' 'bout all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through, yeah
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you........
Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road
I'm out here alone just tryin' to get home
To tell you I was wrong but you already know
Believe me I won't stop at nothin'
To see you so I've started runnin'
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you
Last time we talked, the night that I walked
Burns like an iron in the back of my mind
I must've been high to say you and I
Weren't meant to be and just wastin' my time
Oh, why did I ever doubt you?
You know I would die here without you
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' that all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through
'Cause I know there's no life after you
You and I, right or wrong, there's no other one
After this time I spent alone
It's hard to believe that a man with sight could be so blind
Thinkin' 'bout the better times, must've been outta my mind
So I'm runnin' back to tell you
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
Without you God knows what I'd do, yeah
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughin' with you
I'm thinkin' 'bout all that still matters is love ever after
After the life we've been through, yeah
Know there's no life after you
Know there's no life after you........
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Love
Is a funny thing,it does many things to you,changes you in some way,a good way and also a bad way.Music and Lyrics is just like love,Music is the melody,the first thing you hear,the first impression of someone,the physical attraction.Lyrics is the words,the story of one's life,the unseen things that we slowly learn,learn about each other's life,the story they have to tell,past,present and future,as we start a relationship.The various stages of love to me are:
Courtship
- the sweetest stage,both talk lot,really look forward to seeing each other.Look forward to each other's messages and calls.There are lots of things to talk about,literally everything and anything can be talked about.Both talk or sms each other almost everyday,and tell each other the littlest of things that is happening,happened or going to happen in their life,from going to the supermarket later,there's a blackout,going out with friends or just plain silly little things like guess where I am now or just a simple Hi.
Beginning
- still quite sweet a stage,both will start to inform each other about everything they do form eating breakfast,lunch and dinner to just taking a nap.Both will start to know more about each other,their life is somehow slowly intertwined,both will try to involve each other in their lives. The using of sweet nicknames also starts so does the physical things such as hugs,kisses and holding of hands.
Middle/Stable
- by this stage,both will have already seen alot of each other's life,met some of their friends, and know of their temperaments. Start to know and can tell when they are happy,sad,worried,emo just by looking at the way they type their messages.There also might be small little arguments as each will have probably discovered their differences and start to tolerate and change to suit their partners.Both would probably trust each other more.
End/Break up
- are always selfish,unless mutually agreed. There could be a flurry of reasons but only acceptable to the person who initiated it or when both mutually agreed. The one that did not agree to it would be devastated,no matter how many break ups that they have been through,how used to breaking up a person is,it is always painful,in my opinion at least. Days would be spent missing that special person,nights would be terribly cold and lonely,some cry themselves to sleep, some did not sleep. Hallucinations start messing their minds, false hopes of reconciliation, memories of times spent together playing back over and over, words spoken during the break up,sweet promises to each other,sweet dialogues,read messages over and over,looking at pictures of both together,hoping the other half will realize breaking up is a mistake. They always say time heals all wounds, but they always forget there will always be a scar and time takes a real long course to do it.
Reconciliation
- only possible if the feeling is still there and mutual, and if both believe they sill do love each other.
Well,that's only my view. It differs from person to person. Maybe love is not really like what I see it as..but I've only experienced it one time,maybe the next will tell a different story.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Making Love Out Of Nothing At All..
Blues..again..
Don't feel like doing anything..
Why..does the sight of your pictures,your latest comments,anything about you..
Makes me feel like this..
The feelings..are fading..almost completely..
But still..why..do i miss you?
Is this normal?
Or is this wrong?
I don't know anymore..
I know just how to whisper
And I know just how to cry
I know just where to find the answers
And I know just how to lie
I know just how to fake it
And I know just how to scheme
I know just when to face the truth
And then I know just when to dream
And I know just where to touch you
And I know just what to prove
I know when to pull you closer
And I know when to let you loose
And I know the night is fading
And I know the time's gonna fly
And I'm never gonna tell you
Everything I gotta tell you
But I know I gotta give it a try
And I know the roads to riches
And I know the ways to fame
I know all the rules
And I know how to break 'em
And I always know the name of the game
But I don't know how to leave you
And I'll never let you fall
And I don't know how you do it
Making love out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Everytime I see you all the rays of the sun
Are streaming through the waves in your hair
And every star in the sky is taking aim at your eyes
Like a spotlight
The beating of my heart is a drum and it's lost
And it's looking for a rhythm like you
You can take the darkness from the pit of the night
And turn into a beacon burning endlessly bright
I've gotta follow it 'cause everything I know
Well it's nothing till I give it to you
I can make the runner stumble
I can make the final block
And I can make every tackle at the sound of the whistle
I can make all the stadiums rock
I can make tonight forever
Or I can make it disappear by the dawn
I can make you every promise that has ever been made
I can make all your demons be gone
But I'm never gonna make it without you
Do you really want to see me crawl
And I'm never gonna make it like you do
Making love out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Don't feel like doing anything..
Why..does the sight of your pictures,your latest comments,anything about you..
Makes me feel like this..
The feelings..are fading..almost completely..
But still..why..do i miss you?
Is this normal?
Or is this wrong?
I don't know anymore..
I know just how to whisper
And I know just how to cry
I know just where to find the answers
And I know just how to lie
I know just how to fake it
And I know just how to scheme
I know just when to face the truth
And then I know just when to dream
And I know just where to touch you
And I know just what to prove
I know when to pull you closer
And I know when to let you loose
And I know the night is fading
And I know the time's gonna fly
And I'm never gonna tell you
Everything I gotta tell you
But I know I gotta give it a try
And I know the roads to riches
And I know the ways to fame
I know all the rules
And I know how to break 'em
And I always know the name of the game
But I don't know how to leave you
And I'll never let you fall
And I don't know how you do it
Making love out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Everytime I see you all the rays of the sun
Are streaming through the waves in your hair
And every star in the sky is taking aim at your eyes
Like a spotlight
The beating of my heart is a drum and it's lost
And it's looking for a rhythm like you
You can take the darkness from the pit of the night
And turn into a beacon burning endlessly bright
I've gotta follow it 'cause everything I know
Well it's nothing till I give it to you
I can make the runner stumble
I can make the final block
And I can make every tackle at the sound of the whistle
I can make all the stadiums rock
I can make tonight forever
Or I can make it disappear by the dawn
I can make you every promise that has ever been made
I can make all your demons be gone
But I'm never gonna make it without you
Do you really want to see me crawl
And I'm never gonna make it like you do
Making love out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Making love, Out of nothing at all
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Feelings..
Why am I so moodless now?
Is it because of the weather?
Is it because of the song I'm listening to?
Is it because of the cool temperature of my room?
Is it because of things that are happening?
Is it because of things that are about to happen?
Is it because of things that had happened?
I opened my profile..
Looked at my own pics..
Suddenly felt extreme remorse and regret..
Those pics..I know you didn't want them anymore..
But..why did I removed them?
Just to miss seeing those pics in my profile..
Regret..
Stupid,Stupid,Stupid..
Is it because of the weather?
Is it because of the song I'm listening to?
Is it because of the cool temperature of my room?
Is it because of things that are happening?
Is it because of things that are about to happen?
Is it because of things that had happened?
I opened my profile..
Looked at my own pics..
Suddenly felt extreme remorse and regret..
Those pics..I know you didn't want them anymore..
But..why did I removed them?
Just to miss seeing those pics in my profile..
Regret..
Stupid,Stupid,Stupid..
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
What Happened?
What happened?
I know I did some stupid things..
I know I said some stupid things..
I know I asked some stupid questions..
Is there really no mercy?
Suddenly it felt as if you hate me so much..
Felt as if you despise me..
Disgusted by me..
Can we not just take it as it never happened?
Be just like the way we used to be?
Not back together..
Back like friends..
I felt I was kicked out of your life..
Your mind..
Or was I the one who walked out on my own?
I know I did some stupid things..
I know I said some stupid things..
I know I asked some stupid questions..
Is there really no mercy?
Suddenly it felt as if you hate me so much..
Felt as if you despise me..
Disgusted by me..
Can we not just take it as it never happened?
Be just like the way we used to be?
Not back together..
Back like friends..
I felt I was kicked out of your life..
Your mind..
Or was I the one who walked out on my own?
Saturday, June 26, 2010
对不起,谢谢
纯白无瑕 温柔芬芳
你洗的衣服 有你的模样
满身是汗 脱了又穿
你常笑我脏 男人难免啊
那种稀松平常的对白 已不再
我爱你 好爱你
对不起 谢谢 套上手中那只戒
我恨你 好恨你
对不起 谢谢 嘲笑我有多狼狈
你的善良 我的倔强
我们的小孩 会像谁模样
常常在想 几年之外
长睫毛女孩 单眼皮男孩
曾经近在咫尺的未来 已天涯
我爱你 好爱你
对不起 谢谢 脑中住着你的脸
我恨你 好恨你
对不起 谢谢 孤独刺着我的背
你洗的衣服 有你的模样
满身是汗 脱了又穿
你常笑我脏 男人难免啊
那种稀松平常的对白 已不再
我爱你 好爱你
对不起 谢谢 套上手中那只戒
我恨你 好恨你
对不起 谢谢 嘲笑我有多狼狈
你的善良 我的倔强
我们的小孩 会像谁模样
常常在想 几年之外
长睫毛女孩 单眼皮男孩
曾经近在咫尺的未来 已天涯
我爱你 好爱你
对不起 谢谢 脑中住着你的脸
我恨你 好恨你
对不起 谢谢 孤独刺着我的背
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Restructure,rebuild,restart..
Cleaning out my file..
I discovered there are lots of things I left out..
Haven't done much since that day..
It cannot continue like that..
I must restructure,rebuild and restart everything..
What I feared most happened..
There are lots of things I can blame..
But blaming things doesn't make sense..
And won't correct anything..
I can only blame myself for not being good enough..
The best I can do is accept..move on..
Hope no more..
Think no more..
Those things only happen in movies,fairy tales,stories..
This is reality..and its telling me it ain't gonna happen..
I've learnt a lot..
Changed a lot..
I regret all those things that I did and said when emotions are running high..
I lost my cool..lost my head..
Emotions got control of me..logic is lost..
Thinking back of all those that I did and said since after that day..
Makes me think how much of a fool I am..
Immature,Idiot,Moronic..
But I cannot take back what I said..
I cannot undo whats done..
You're probably disgusted by my actions and words..
You're probably hating me so much..
You'll probably kill me if you could..
I cannot apologize enough..
Words cannot describe how I feel..
I've even lost the courage to contact you..
Stay in your life or leave at once?
Its all up to you..
I know I've left to much mess and destruction to come back again..
And I promise myself I would not make life any harder for you..
Restructure,
Rebuild,
Restart,
Time to get my life back on track..
I discovered there are lots of things I left out..
Haven't done much since that day..
It cannot continue like that..
I must restructure,rebuild and restart everything..
What I feared most happened..
There are lots of things I can blame..
But blaming things doesn't make sense..
And won't correct anything..
I can only blame myself for not being good enough..
The best I can do is accept..move on..
Hope no more..
Think no more..
Those things only happen in movies,fairy tales,stories..
This is reality..and its telling me it ain't gonna happen..
I've learnt a lot..
Changed a lot..
I regret all those things that I did and said when emotions are running high..
I lost my cool..lost my head..
Emotions got control of me..logic is lost..
Thinking back of all those that I did and said since after that day..
Makes me think how much of a fool I am..
Immature,Idiot,Moronic..
But I cannot take back what I said..
I cannot undo whats done..
You're probably disgusted by my actions and words..
You're probably hating me so much..
You'll probably kill me if you could..
I cannot apologize enough..
Words cannot describe how I feel..
I've even lost the courage to contact you..
Stay in your life or leave at once?
Its all up to you..
I know I've left to much mess and destruction to come back again..
And I promise myself I would not make life any harder for you..
Restructure,
Rebuild,
Restart,
Time to get my life back on track..
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Hot Water..
Great..
Now you've done it..
You landed yourself in hot water..
It's so deep that you're not gonna survive..
Turning back?
I don't think so..
Apologize?
She's already very pissed..
What can you do now?
There's nothing you can do..
Hope for the best and prepare for the worst..
Again you've let your emotions get the better of you..
Idiot..
Now you've really done it..
You've almost gotten yourself killed..
Great..just great..
I hope you've learnt your lesson..
Maybe..
Just maybe one day you'll both look back at this and laugh..
But I don't think so..
You've just lost a friend..
Now you've done it..
You landed yourself in hot water..
It's so deep that you're not gonna survive..
Turning back?
I don't think so..
Apologize?
She's already very pissed..
What can you do now?
There's nothing you can do..
Hope for the best and prepare for the worst..
Again you've let your emotions get the better of you..
Idiot..
Now you've really done it..
You've almost gotten yourself killed..
Great..just great..
I hope you've learnt your lesson..
Maybe..
Just maybe one day you'll both look back at this and laugh..
But I don't think so..
You've just lost a friend..
手放开
我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆
看着往事一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱
我把电视机打开听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏
人怔怔看情感概
不能给你未来我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪流下来伤已超载
分开也是另一种明白
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台
有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌
写着等待
我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
啃咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开
我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害
每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆
看着往事一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱
我把电视机打开听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏
人怔怔看情感概
不能给你未来我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪流下来伤已超载
分开也是另一种明白
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台
有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌
写着等待
我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
啃咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开
我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害
Monday, June 14, 2010
Only Love
2a.m, and the rain is falling.
Here we are at the crossroads once again.
You are telling me you're so confussed.
You can't make up your mind.
Is this meant to be..you're asking me?
But only love can say,
Try again or walk away.
But I believe for you and me,
The sun will shine one day.
So I just play my part,
Pray you'll have a change of heart.
But I can't make you see it through.
That's something only love can do.
In your arms, as the dawn is breaking,
Face to face and a thousand miles apart.
I've tried my best to make you see,
There's hope beyond the pain.
If we give enough, if we learn to trust.
I know if I can find the words, to touch you deep inside,
You'd give our dream just one more chance.
Don't let this be our last good-bye.
Here we are at the crossroads once again.
You are telling me you're so confussed.
You can't make up your mind.
Is this meant to be..you're asking me?
But only love can say,
Try again or walk away.
But I believe for you and me,
The sun will shine one day.
So I just play my part,
Pray you'll have a change of heart.
But I can't make you see it through.
That's something only love can do.
In your arms, as the dawn is breaking,
Face to face and a thousand miles apart.
I've tried my best to make you see,
There's hope beyond the pain.
If we give enough, if we learn to trust.
I know if I can find the words, to touch you deep inside,
You'd give our dream just one more chance.
Don't let this be our last good-bye.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
Memory Lane
I walked down memory lane today....
Today class finished at 2pm..
Dad can't come and he asked me whether I wanted to wait or find own way home..
I choose the latter..
I went to take a bus with She Yeng and her friend..
We then boarded a LRT at Wangsa Maju..
Lots of memories came back..
Especially when we passed through Masjid Jamek...
Where I got my first peck on the cheeck form her..
Passed through KLCC...
Where we first hold hands and she leaned on my shoulder...
I then dropped off at KL Sentral..
Took a KTM to Mid Valley..another memory lane..
Went to visit Adam..
Went pass the cinema..
Where we que-ed up to buy tickets and watched movies in the past..
Too bad I din't have time to go to The Gardens's GSC Signature..
Where I treated you to a movie with my NS allowance..
Went pass Delicious..
Where we had our first dinner together..
The table that we sat at is still there =')
A small table beside the entrance of the kitchen..
I stood outside and just took a glimpse of that table..
Brings back so many memories =')
Went pass 3point6..
Where we bought my pair of Nike sneakers..together =')
Which I wear everyday now..
Went pass Sushi King..
Where our Senja Gang gathered 2 years ago..
Also Kenko Fish Spa..
Where our Senja Gang visited 2 years ago..
Went pass Baskin Robbins...
Where you treated me with you salary..
Too bad I can't find the Watsons where our Senja Gang was supposed to meet at 2 years ago XD
As I was walking through all these places..
I was smiling.. =')
So much memories just in one place..one shopping mall..
But all those moments are just memories now..
Didn't expect that you'd leave me so soon =')
Walking through all these places..
Re-living all these memories made me so happy..
I cannot deny that I wish you would come back into my life..
But I cannot be so selfish as to not take into account your feelings towards me..
I don't know..
I can't predict the future..
Will you be back in the future?
Will I ever see you again?
Will we ever meet by chance?
Was that day the last that I would see you in my life?
Will I find another? Will you?
If you do..I know all these memories might turn sour..
But until that day comes..
Or at least for now..
I'm happy with these memories.. =')
Thanks for the memories..
I do miss you til now..
I do still have feelings for you..
Thanks..my angel =')
Today class finished at 2pm..
Dad can't come and he asked me whether I wanted to wait or find own way home..
I choose the latter..
I went to take a bus with She Yeng and her friend..
We then boarded a LRT at Wangsa Maju..
Lots of memories came back..
Especially when we passed through Masjid Jamek...
Where I got my first peck on the cheeck form her..
Passed through KLCC...
Where we first hold hands and she leaned on my shoulder...
I then dropped off at KL Sentral..
Took a KTM to Mid Valley..another memory lane..
Went to visit Adam..
Went pass the cinema..
Where we que-ed up to buy tickets and watched movies in the past..
Too bad I din't have time to go to The Gardens's GSC Signature..
Where I treated you to a movie with my NS allowance..
Went pass Delicious..
Where we had our first dinner together..
The table that we sat at is still there =')
A small table beside the entrance of the kitchen..
I stood outside and just took a glimpse of that table..
Brings back so many memories =')
Went pass 3point6..
Where we bought my pair of Nike sneakers..together =')
Which I wear everyday now..
Went pass Sushi King..
Where our Senja Gang gathered 2 years ago..
Also Kenko Fish Spa..
Where our Senja Gang visited 2 years ago..
Went pass Baskin Robbins...
Where you treated me with you salary..
Too bad I can't find the Watsons where our Senja Gang was supposed to meet at 2 years ago XD
As I was walking through all these places..
I was smiling.. =')
So much memories just in one place..one shopping mall..
But all those moments are just memories now..
Didn't expect that you'd leave me so soon =')
Walking through all these places..
Re-living all these memories made me so happy..
I cannot deny that I wish you would come back into my life..
But I cannot be so selfish as to not take into account your feelings towards me..
I don't know..
I can't predict the future..
Will you be back in the future?
Will I ever see you again?
Will we ever meet by chance?
Was that day the last that I would see you in my life?
Will I find another? Will you?
If you do..I know all these memories might turn sour..
But until that day comes..
Or at least for now..
I'm happy with these memories.. =')
Thanks for the memories..
I do miss you til now..
I do still have feelings for you..
Thanks..my angel =')
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Feeling..
What more can I say??
Other than I'm sooo going to miss you?
Knowing that we could've been to the same college just makes it so much harder to let go..
(; _ ; )
I'm trying my best to be strong..
I'm trying my best..
But I just crumble..
I need you now more than ever..
I need you here..
I need to be in your arms..
I need your words of encouragement..
I know I can't stop you..
And I can;t be so selfish..
I'm happy for you..
But deep down inside..
The selfish little me is just wishing..
BABY DON'T GO!!
(; _ ;)
Other than I'm sooo going to miss you?
Knowing that we could've been to the same college just makes it so much harder to let go..
(; _ ; )
I'm trying my best to be strong..
I'm trying my best..
But I just crumble..
I need you now more than ever..
I need you here..
I need to be in your arms..
I need your words of encouragement..
I know I can't stop you..
And I can;t be so selfish..
I'm happy for you..
But deep down inside..
The selfish little me is just wishing..
BABY DON'T GO!!
(; _ ;)
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
National Service
I'm back from the camp..
There's an awful lot to write about..
If I am willing to write it all out that is..
Life in camp is good..
Good food..
Good environment..
Good friends..
And there are also lots of fun activities..
But things that are bad in there are:
-Some bastard trainees that wreak havoc..
-The camp service provider is bad
-The camp's service provider's workes is bad..
The schedule of a trainee in Camp Semarak:
- 5.30 Solat subuh(muslims only.non-muslim can sleep til 6.00 o'clock)
- 6.30-7.30 PT (physical training..morning is for excercises and jogging)
- 7.30-8.30 Breakfast (you really only have time to eat til 8..coz you still have to prepare for class)
-8.30-10.30 CB class/Integration class/Kenegaraan Class
-10.30-11.00 Morning tea
-11.00-12.30 Continue class
-12.30-2.30 Lunch (for muslim they have time til 1.30 then they go for prayers..for non-muslims eat as fast as you can so you can go back to your dorm for some sleep)
-2.30-4.30 PT (evening is for tali tinggi/kayaking/kembara halangan and whatever physical activities)
-4.30-5.30 Evening tea
-5.30-6.30 Riadah (play some sports or just hang around)
-6.30-7.30 Dinner
-9.00-10.00 Simpanan (for use if there are any briefings or lectures or speeches)
-10.00-10.30 Roll Call (headcount)
-10.30-11.00 Supper
-11.00 Lights off..
Items that are issued to trainees:
-2 pairs of baju kelas
-2 pairs of seluar kelas
-1 pairs of kasut kelas
-2 pairs of baju PT
-2 pairs of seluar PT (tracksuits)
-1 pair of kasut PT
-2 pairs of baju celoreng (blue camo)
-2 pairs of seluar celoreng
-1 pair of spike boots
-a towel
-a shoe brush
-kiwi
-a plate/bowl/saucer/spoon/cup
-a padlock and key
-bedsheet
-pillow cover
-blanket
Thats all for now
There's an awful lot to write about..
If I am willing to write it all out that is..
Life in camp is good..
Good food..
Good environment..
Good friends..
And there are also lots of fun activities..
But things that are bad in there are:
-Some bastard trainees that wreak havoc..
-The camp service provider is bad
-The camp's service provider's workes is bad..
The schedule of a trainee in Camp Semarak:
- 5.30 Solat subuh(muslims only.non-muslim can sleep til 6.00 o'clock)
- 6.30-7.30 PT (physical training..morning is for excercises and jogging)
- 7.30-8.30 Breakfast (you really only have time to eat til 8..coz you still have to prepare for class)
-8.30-10.30 CB class/Integration class/Kenegaraan Class
-10.30-11.00 Morning tea
-11.00-12.30 Continue class
-12.30-2.30 Lunch (for muslim they have time til 1.30 then they go for prayers..for non-muslims eat as fast as you can so you can go back to your dorm for some sleep)
-2.30-4.30 PT (evening is for tali tinggi/kayaking/kembara halangan and whatever physical activities)
-4.30-5.30 Evening tea
-5.30-6.30 Riadah (play some sports or just hang around)
-6.30-7.30 Dinner
-9.00-10.00 Simpanan (for use if there are any briefings or lectures or speeches)
-10.00-10.30 Roll Call (headcount)
-10.30-11.00 Supper
-11.00 Lights off..
Items that are issued to trainees:
-2 pairs of baju kelas
-2 pairs of seluar kelas
-1 pairs of kasut kelas
-2 pairs of baju PT
-2 pairs of seluar PT (tracksuits)
-1 pair of kasut PT
-2 pairs of baju celoreng (blue camo)
-2 pairs of seluar celoreng
-1 pair of spike boots
-a towel
-a shoe brush
-kiwi
-a plate/bowl/saucer/spoon/cup
-a padlock and key
-bedsheet
-pillow cover
-blanket
Thats all for now
Friday, January 1, 2010
Time To Go
I'm packed..
All ready..
I got all the things I need..
I'm gonna be gone for about 3 months..
I'm gonna be in Pekan,Pahang..
Kem Semarak..
I'm not emotionally ready though..
At first..when I got to know I got selected for National Service..
I was happy..I was over the moon..
Then I was excited..
Now I'm a bit scared and nervous..
I'm real sad about leaving my friends..
After thinking back to all the memories we shared..
Every joke and laughter..
Every place and table we sat at..
I'm a bit heavy hearted to leave them..
In case I got homesick..or miss them..
All I have to remind me of them are all the bits and pieces of memories..
Bts and pieces that are linked to them..
Movie tickets..
The BBQ receipts..
Ice skating wristband..
The fortune slip of fortune cookies..
All the bits and pieces that will bring me back to the moments of happiness..
I just hope that i don't miss them too much..
Too much to the point that the bits and pieces of memories will bring tears to my eyes..
I hope I don't cry myself to sleep tonight..
All ready..
I got all the things I need..
I'm gonna be gone for about 3 months..
I'm gonna be in Pekan,Pahang..
Kem Semarak..
I'm not emotionally ready though..
At first..when I got to know I got selected for National Service..
I was happy..I was over the moon..
Then I was excited..
Now I'm a bit scared and nervous..
I'm real sad about leaving my friends..
After thinking back to all the memories we shared..
Every joke and laughter..
Every place and table we sat at..
I'm a bit heavy hearted to leave them..
In case I got homesick..or miss them..
All I have to remind me of them are all the bits and pieces of memories..
Bts and pieces that are linked to them..
Movie tickets..
The BBQ receipts..
Ice skating wristband..
The fortune slip of fortune cookies..
All the bits and pieces that will bring me back to the moments of happiness..
I just hope that i don't miss them too much..
Too much to the point that the bits and pieces of memories will bring tears to my eyes..
I hope I don't cry myself to sleep tonight..
New Year's Eve
Went to Chloe's for the bbq party..
There was lots of people there..
Chloe's relatives,neighbours,her brother's friends and us..
There were lots of food..
Hams,sausages,chicken wings..LOBSTER!!!!
We also joked around alot..
At about 11.45p.m we walked out to a strecth of road the has an
unobstructed view to the city nightsky..
We watched lots of fireworks all around us and counted down..
We even popped open some sparkling juice..
After that we cleaned p and went to my house..
We sang karaoke and watched movies to the wee hours of the morning..
All of them slept in my living room..
Except for Vic who went home at about 4am coz he need to work later at 1oam..
And Chloe who went back to her home at about 5am to sleep..
When we woke up..
We went to the Dragon View Restaurant to have brunch..
And went back to my place to hang put somemore..
They left at about 3.30pm..
A great start to a new year..
There was lots of people there..
Chloe's relatives,neighbours,her brother's friends and us..
There were lots of food..
Hams,sausages,chicken wings..LOBSTER!!!!
We also joked around alot..
At about 11.45p.m we walked out to a strecth of road the has an
unobstructed view to the city nightsky..
We watched lots of fireworks all around us and counted down..
We even popped open some sparkling juice..
After that we cleaned p and went to my house..
We sang karaoke and watched movies to the wee hours of the morning..
All of them slept in my living room..
Except for Vic who went home at about 4am coz he need to work later at 1oam..
And Chloe who went back to her home at about 5am to sleep..
When we woke up..
We went to the Dragon View Restaurant to have brunch..
And went back to my place to hang put somemore..
They left at about 3.30pm..
A great start to a new year..
The Princess and The Frog
On the last day of year 2009..
I went to Mid Valley to watch a movie with a princess..
Princess Ke Xin..haha..
While I was DotA-ing in the afternoon..
Suddenly came a message on my phone..
" Wo hen men ar.. Any1 free to acompany me go watch sherlock holmes at mid valley 2day? >.<"
Since I was bored as well..
And so we went to Mid Valey..
At first..the first choice movie was Sherlock Holmes..
Then came the other choices The Vampire's Assistant and The Princess and The Frog..
We choosed The Princess and the Frog because both Sherlock Holmes and The Vampire's Assistant were sold out..
After buying the tickets..
We went to BASKIN ROBBINS!!!
Ke Xin treated me ecaused she promised me she would when she earned money..
IT WAS SOOOOOO GOOD!!
Then Adam and Vic came..
But they only joined us briefly because they went job hunting..
We walked around Mid Valley just trying to kill time..
And we both talked a lot..
It has been about a year and a half since we've last met..
Naturally there was lots to talk about..
The movie was nice..
And quite funny too..
Kinda like a musical also..
After the movie..
We went to the KTM station..
She on the Seremban line and me on the Rawang line..
After that I went straight home..
Washed my face..
And went to Chloe's house for the bbq party..
It was truly a fun day..
The ice-cream was nice..
The movie was nice..
She was nice..hahaha..
Truly she a princess..
And me a frog..haha
I went to Mid Valley to watch a movie with a princess..
Princess Ke Xin..haha..
While I was DotA-ing in the afternoon..
Suddenly came a message on my phone..
" Wo hen men ar.. Any1 free to acompany me go watch sherlock holmes at mid valley 2day? >.<"
Since I was bored as well..
And so we went to Mid Valey..
At first..the first choice movie was Sherlock Holmes..
Then came the other choices The Vampire's Assistant and The Princess and The Frog..
We choosed The Princess and the Frog because both Sherlock Holmes and The Vampire's Assistant were sold out..
After buying the tickets..
We went to BASKIN ROBBINS!!!
Ke Xin treated me ecaused she promised me she would when she earned money..
IT WAS SOOOOOO GOOD!!
Then Adam and Vic came..
But they only joined us briefly because they went job hunting..
We walked around Mid Valley just trying to kill time..
And we both talked a lot..
It has been about a year and a half since we've last met..
Naturally there was lots to talk about..
The movie was nice..
And quite funny too..
Kinda like a musical also..
After the movie..
We went to the KTM station..
She on the Seremban line and me on the Rawang line..
After that I went straight home..
Washed my face..
And went to Chloe's house for the bbq party..
It was truly a fun day..
The ice-cream was nice..
The movie was nice..
She was nice..hahaha..
Truly she a princess..
And me a frog..haha
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