This Is It..

Here it is..the last day of '09..
Year '09 is almost over..
Its not such a bad year..
Yet its not so good either..

I did a lot on this year..
Lost some friends..
Gained new ones..
Strengthen old bonds..

Took one of the biggest exam of secondary school..
Studied last minute for exam.. xP
Stressed for exam..

Fell in crush? Lol..
Fell out of crush..
And then fell in again..haha

Went on many outings..
Celebrated many birthdays..
Had many happy memories..
Had many sad ones..

Given out lots of birthday presents..
Received lots in return..haha

Had friends over to party many times..
Went ice skating..
Movies..
Karaoke..
Badminton..
FRIM..
Education Fair..
And lits more..

Spent lots of money..
Earned none..haha

Many memories..
Many many memories..
And let all the good ones stay..
Bad ones go away..

Friends

What would you do without them?

Have you ever thought about..
What you would do..
If you lost a friend?

Who will cheer you up when you are down?
Who will you have fun with?
Who will you share your problems with?
Who will you share your hapiness with?

Well,you could do all those with your family..
But will it be the same as doing those with your friends?

Today..
That thought came on my mind..
After an incident that happened earlier today..

Friends are important..
Cherish them..
Cherish every moment..
Before it is all gone..

At first,I feel happy about going to National Service..
But now,after what happened today..
I feel a bit reluctant..
To leave my friends..

A few moments can change things..
What will three months do?

Linger...

She wore a black dress that night...
And was sitting across the room..
Along with the other girls..
Watching the couples dance..

I was on the other side of the room..
With the boys..all without a date..
And I was staring at her..
Her long black flowing hair..
Her bright eyes..
Luscious lips..

"How could she be without a date"?
That was what I thought..
She..so pretty..like an angel that fell right out of the sky..
Sitting there on the otherside of the room..
Looking bored when she should enjoy herself..

"Maybe this is my chance"
Suddenly..
I found the courage..
To walk across the room..
Towards this angel..
My hand outstretched..
"May I"?
She took my hand..

We danced..
The song's tempo was upbeat..
We were working up a sweat..
Then..then tempo slowed down..
So did we..
The song that was playing was Linger by The Cranberries..

She put her hands on my shoulder..
I put mine on her waist..
Our heads..leaned towards each other..
Our foreheads rested on each other's..
Just like in the movies...
Our body swayed to the music..
Eyes closed..enjoying the moment..

But I'm in so deep,You know I'm such a fool for you..
You got me wrapped around your finger..
Do you have to let it linger..
Do you have to,Do you have to..
Do you have to let it linger..

My lips move towards hers..
It felt so natural..
But it did not connect..
She blocked my lips with a finger..
"Will you still love me in the morning"?
"Forever and ever baby"
And we shared our first kiss together..

The Perfect Dream..

Who knew it could happen at a time like this..
I was trying to sleep..
It was late and I have to send my mum,sis,grandpa,uncle,aunt and cousins off at KLIA in just a few hours..
Then came the most perfect dream ever..

It was about my crush..
Someone I know that I will never ever even have a chance with..
I gotta write this down before I forget this..
I already forgotten most of it though..

It kinda started like this..
The girl..she was doing something on my grandparent's rooftop balcony..
Then we met there..and were flirting..

Then the scenario somehow changed to the inside of a train..
And we were inside it..with a bunch of friends..
Laughing together..
And then it changed again to the insides of a mall..
I seemed that we were having a lot of fun..and seemed close together..
Like a couple..

That's all that I could remember..
And I just woke up..
How could I forget something as sweet as this so fast..

I hate myself so now..
Hate myself for forgetting this sweet dream so fast..
I guess that it will never come again..

And what happens in a dream..
Stays a dream..
Will never become reality..
Ever..

Merry Christmas ^^

Had a BBQ party at my plce..
Went out with Mable,Moon Hui and her sis to Carrefour at about 1pm to buy the stuffs needed..

Adam,Derek and Cheryl arrved at about 6 to help set up things..
But it started to drizzle abit..so we just sat in and hooked up Adam's laptop to the plasma and logged in to Facebook..

Then me and Adam went up to my room to bring down my speakers..
When we were setting up the speakers..
Suet Ee,Kar Yee,Chloe,Wee Vern and Pei Pei arrived..
Ella also arrived with Vic and Moon Hui..
Then Mable arrived with the food that her mum bought and marinated..

As usual..
Me and Adam is in charge of starting the fire..
While the others prepared the table and stuffs..
Once the charcoal was burning up..we started eatings..

While eating there was christmas songs playing..
The atmoshere was nice..
Then my grandparents,uncles,aunties and cousins arrived..
My friends had fun with Justin I think..
Particularly Kar Yee coz she kept asking me all the time to tell Justin that her name is Kar Yee too (another of my cousin is named Kar Yee) in cantonese since Justin doesn't understand mandarin..

Things started to get crazy when Adam and Vic started to play with the snow sprays..
First it was just both of them..then everyone joined in and soon it was a free for all assault..
It was safe to say that everyone got some 'snow' sprayed on them..

We then exchanged the gifts that we brought..
Adam got my present..
A kinda snow globe thingy..
And I got Suet Ee's present..
Erm.which is of not much or suitable to use right now..
Not yet at least..

Then slowly the started to go home 1 by 1..
And we had a mini countdown..
Soon there was only me,Mable,Ella,Moon Hui,Adam,Derek,Cheryl and Vic
We sang Emil Chau's 'Peng You' and recorded it so that Ella listen to it if she missed us..
Ella and me will be leaving for National Service on the 2nd of January..

When Ella,Moon Hui and Vic left..
We started up the cleaning process..
Luckily Mable,Adam,Derek and Vic was there to help clean up..
Then they left too..

I cleaned up what's left..
Bathed..
And now here I am blogging..
It was a great night..
A great party..
Thanks for all your help and participation guys..
Without you guys..this bbq will never succeed..
Thanks again for making this a very merry christmas indeed..
MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!

GSC Signature

Yesterday went for Avatar 3D with two of my best cousins..Charlie and Win King at GSC Signature,The Gardens..
The movie was damn cool..the place was damn class..

The tickests cost Rm27..quite procey..
But..the seats were nice and comfy.and there's plenty of leg room in between the rows..
The seats each come with a side table..
And were arranged in twos..
Sorta like couple seats..

This 3D movie was even better than Final Destination 3..
Although there were not as many 'out of the screen' effects..
Plenty of action though..

Next time..I'm gonna go for the gold class..
With the red leatehr seats and blankets and pillows..
Yeah..damn cool..

After that we went back to MV Megamall to shop for some New Year clothes..
Not much time to walk around though..
Cause they have to rush back to SP and the next day Penang to pick up Li Yin..

All in all..
It was a great day..
But..
While watchin the movie..
The seat next to me...
It feels..
Empty..

Education Fair

Went to the education fair at Mid Valley today with Mable,Derek,Ella,Adam,Cheryl and Vic.
Went to find out something about the courses that I'm interested in..
Its either mass comm. or law..still haven't made up my mind yet..
And did not found out much about the colleges either because all we did was walking around :p and besides..there were lots of people at the booth of the college that I'm interested in..

Moon Hui already dyed her hair..
All I can say is that the colour earned her the nick 'Gam Jie'
Mable plan to do hers tomorrow..along with Adam and Vic I think..
All the hairs of our gang will be dyed..except for me..
Ella will do hers after NS..

Sigh..I really don't know what to do about the BBQ though..
Don't really know if they are even coming..I don't have solid answers from them..
All of them seems like they are busy...

Goin to NS in 2 weeks time..
And I still haven't taken my undang exam yet..haizz..

Never Knew I Needed

For the way you changed my plans
For being the perfect distraction
For the way you took the idea that I have
Of everything that I wanted to have
And made me see there was something missing

For the ending of my first begin
And for the rare and unexpected friend
For the way you're something that I never choose
But at the same time something I don't wanna lose
And never wanna be without ever again

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear I need you here always

My accidental happily (ever after)
The way you slime and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
I must admit you were not a part of my book
But now if you open it up and take a look
You're the beginning and the end of every chapter

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear I need you here always

Who'd knew that I'd be here
So unexpectedly
Undeniablely happy
Sitting with you right here, right here next to me
Girl you're the best..

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear I need you here always
Now it's so clear I need you here always

p/s: for that someone who never fails to cheer me up with her laughter..

Skating

Today..
Me,Mable,Chloe,Suet Ee,Adam,Derek,Ella,Vic,Melody and Andrew went for ice skating..
Me,Mable and Chloe boarded a train from KTM Kepong,met up with the rest of the gang at KTM Segambut and then changed a train at KL Sentral to KTM Subang Jaya and boardeda mini bus to Sunway Piramid for ice skating..
It was damn worth the long journey..

Once we were there..we saw many people on the ice rink..so we went for lunch first..
We had McD..And I was in danger..Why you ask?
Because I was the only one who ordered the Prosperity set..
And everybody attacked my Curly Fries..
I had to protect them and keep it close to me..but at last.
I just shared it with them..

Whe I first put on the skates..and walkied around in the rink(not inside the rink)..
It was easy..although a little bit wobbly...
But when I first put my feet on the ice..my feet was ohn turbo mode..
I just straight away slipped to the middle..
As I was the first to enter..and the others were behind me..
Adam and Derek (the real Pro) thought that I already know how to skate..
Seconds later..I crashed and burned..and sprained my ankles..

After a few more times of crashing and burning..I knew how to skate..
At a slow speed and without much cntrol that is..
Even the other girls that are first timers like myself started to get the hang of it too..
Soon..I was able to skate a whole round on the rink without falling..
Then..a faggot in black skated in the OPPOSITE FLOW OF TRAFFIC..
And heading towards me..bveing the newbie that I am..of course I couldn't avoid it..
Second later the faggot knocked my feet..sending me flying superman style..
And crash and burned on the snow..all the faggot could do was apologise..

After that..we went for dinner at Wong Kok..
Then the other boys decided to go to KFC instead..
Leaving me with all the girls..

While inside the train..
Both from Subang Jaya and the Rawang line..
We told a lot of jokes and funny happenings on the days..
We were so loud...haha
Suet Ee couldn't stop laughing..

A happy day..although I sprained my ankle..
It hurts like hell..

1 Malaysia Hang Out

On Monday..
Me,Hafiz,Sadiq,Ameer,Izdihar,Muhila and Hidayah hanged at Brem..
We went there after we've been to the school to claim our ko-ko marks..

We had luch at the food court..
A game of bowling..
And watched Zombieland..
Quite nice a movie..with loads of cool gun scenes..

Then after we came out..
The chinese gang was waiting for their turn to watch Zombieland..
We went doen to Just K for 3..yes fucking 3 hours of K..
But we went home after about 2 hours..the extra 1 hour was F.O.C anyway..
A fun and muhibbah day..haha

Because Of You

Want to, but I can’t help it
I love the way it feels,
It’s got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real
I need it when I want it, I want it when I don’t
Tell myself I’ll stop everyday, knowin’ that I won't[

I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it

And it’s all because of you
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug

Think of it every second
I can't get nothing done,
Only concern is the next time, I’m gonna get me some
Know I should stay away from, cause it's no good for me
I try and try but my obsession wont let me leave

I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it

And it’s all because of you
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug

Ain’t no doubt, so strung out
Over you, over you, over you

Because of you,
And it’s all because of you,
Never get enough
She’s the sweetest drug, she’s the sweetest drug

It's Over

It's over..
The fact that my secondary school life is over hasn't quite sink in yet..
It feels like that this is just one of those holiday periods..
That I have to retun to school after a few weeks..
Only that this time..the holiday is permanent..
And I won't have to go back to school ever again..except on the day that the results are out..

For the past few days I'm just lingering around..
Don't really know what to do..

On Wednesday night..
I went with the girls for New Moon..
Me,Ella,Suet Ee,Chloe,Mable,Melody,Moon Hui and Cheryl..
The 8 of us..quite a nice movie..well for the girls at least..

On Thursday..
Morning..I went with Adam and his friend to Damansara Kayu Ara..
We went for the 5hr session..the first part for the L license..finally..the first step towards driving..
Evening..Went for badminton..2hrs of it..
There we lots of people for badminton..
Me,Ella,Suet Ee,Mable,Chloe and her 2 little bros,Cheryl,Wee Vern,Moon Hui,Melody,Vic,Derek,Kar Yee,Pei Pei,Wee Vern,Wee Xin..
After badminton we went to Happy City Food COurt for dinner except for Kar Yee,Pei Pei and Chloe and her bros..
When we were planning to go to Desa Park City after dinner..
Moon Hui's car broke down..and I called my parents there to have a look and fix it..
After the car was fixed..all of us had no mood to go to Desa Prak anymore..so we just went home.

Today..
Morning..I went to my mum's office..and went to the Jusco there to buy things for my coming NS stint on the 2nd of January till the 14th of March..
Evening..went for futsal with the malay boys..had lots of fun and laughs..
Had a simple dinner at Firdouse..and then a half hour walk back home..

By the time I reach home..my whole body was aching..it still does now..
People always say sports is good for the body..
I think they failed to mention that too much sport is bad for the body..

Judgement Day

It's been 2 years..
For 2 years we've been preparing for this..
Now...it's here..
Judgement Day is upon us..

ATTENTION!! ATTENTION!!
ALL HANDS ON DECK!!
FULL SPEED AHEAD!!
MAN YOUR STATIONS!!
MAN THAT 50cal!!
MAN YOUR AIRCRAFTS!!
CLEAR THE RUNWAY!!
MAX POWER!!
STOCK UP ON AMMO!!
LOAD YOUR RIFLES!!
WEAPONS FREE!!
FIRE AT WILL!!
12 O'CLOCK!!
INCOMINGGGG!!!!!

THE WAR HAS JUST BEGUN!!
TO ALL MY COMRADES..
MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU!!

Gives You HELL!!

I wake up every evening
With a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place
And you're still probably working
At a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell,
I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell

Now where's your picket fence love
And where's that shiny car
Did it ever get you far?
You never seem so tense, love
Never seen you fall so hard
Do you know where you are?

Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell,
I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man thats worth the damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Where did it all go wrong?
But the list goes on and on

Truth be told I miss you
Truth be told I'm lying

When you see my faceI hope it gives you hell,
I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see
What you've done to me
You can take back your memories
They're no good to me
And here's all your lies
If you look me in the eyes
With the sad, sad look
That you wear so well

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
When you walk my wayI hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth the damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool you're just as well hope it gives you hell

When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell (hope it gives you hell)
When you walk my way
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell (hope it gives you hell)
When you hear this song and you sing along well you'll never tell
And you're the fool I've just as well I hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song I hope that it will give you hell
You can sing along I hope that it puts you through hell

7 days 1 week

In exactly 7 days from now..
I'll be taking the SPM..
A passport out of secondary school and to the future..
A passport out of this school to college..

But leaving this school..
Means leaving the friends I've made here over the years..
Its sad to old friends..
Its like seeing a part of you die..

We always plan activities to do after the SPM..
But the truth is I'm afraid we'll all go our own way after the SPM..
And might not be able to see each other again..

I've been thinking these few days about what to do after the exams..
Whether to join the activities we planned..
Leave for Alor Star to my cousins's
Or go out with different bunch of friends..
Its not that I don't want to join the activities we've planned..
Its just that I hate to say goodbye and part ways after..

I've always noticed that communication keeps friends together..
The lesser we communicate..the futher apart we grow..
I'm afraid that this will happen when all of us goes to college..
Where new friends will be made..and old ones forgotten..

Even if these few days I felt like you guys just grew colder towards me..
Even if it is just me thinking that you all have abandoned me..
Even if both of that really happens..
I still regard you all as my ohana..

Ohana means family..
Family means nobody gets left behind..
Or forgotten..

Graduation

Finally graduated from this school..
This school that is filled with bittersweet memories..

Took lots of photos..
Had lots of fun..

Said I would not miss this school..
Said I would not miss the teachers..
Said I would not miss the friends..

I dunno..
I'm starting to doubt myself..

The Square Root Of Three

I fear that I will always be
A lonely number like root three

The three is all that’s good and right,
Why must my three keep out of sight
Beneath the vicious square root sign,
I wish instead I were a nine

For nine could thwart this evil trick,
with just some quick arithmetic
I know I’ll never see the sun, as 1.7321
Such is my reality, a sad irrationality

When hark! What is this I see,
Another square root of a three

Has quietly come waltzing by,
Together now we multiply
To form a number we prefer,
Rejoicing as an integer

We break free from our mortal bonds
With the wave of magic wands

Our square root signs become unglued
Love for me has been renewed

Happy Birthday..Happy Night..

Today started with a surprise..
While sitting on the kerb waiting for the guys to get here..
Desmond came over..
Wished me happy birthday and gave me the first present of the day..

Then while walking into the class with the usual morning zombie face..
I place my bag on my chair..
Then..
Suddenly Mable shouted..
BOON KEAT!! SANG YAT FAI LOK!!
I damn shocked..don't know what to say..only managed to nod..

And then during the rehersal for the Graduation Day..
After the break..while I was sitting on my chair..
Chloe,Wee Vern,Pei Pei,Suet Ee and Kar Yee came over..
I suspected something fishy then they gave me a present..
And started to sing Happy Birthday..
In the hall!! with so many people in it!!
Embarrased in the hall.. ;P

After add math tution..
Went to Gasoline with Suet Ee,San San,Moon Hui,Kenneth,Vic,Derek,Ella,Cheryl,Adam and Mable to celebrate..
While eating Ella gave me the phone..
Rooy was on the other end..and wished me Happy Birthday.. :D
Then they were joking and taking pictures like mad..
Some went to the toilet..
Then suddenly they started to sing Happy Birthday..
And brought out a cake!! My first birthday cake bought by my friends!!
DAMN SURPRISED OK!!

Then we took a lot of pics..
And Mable started the first cream assault on my face..followed by them all..
And the worst came from Kenneth..
Instead of cream..he used...HAK CIU!!(black pepper) on my forehead!! HAHAHAHAHA!!
And them we took somemore pics and cut and ate the cake..

After the cake..we had somemore camwhoring and the settled the bill and went home..

Surprise(s) of the day: Mable's super loud wishing..
: The birthday cake..

Maniac(s) of the day: Kenneth(like drunk liao)
: Suet Ee(laugh whole way from SSTC to Gasoline and back to her home)

Thank you to all fres for your sweet wishes,presents and the party..and the birthday cake..
I had a memorable night...and the best birthday party ever..

Love you guys so much..
I chereish our friendship very much,..
I can't that you enough.. :D:D
Smiling so wide now..its hard to sleep..

Hatred

I hate you you hideous beast..
You loathsome gargoyle who burns in hell..

Hate to see you in the morning..
Hate to see you in the noon..
Hate to see you in the evening..
Hate to see you at night..
But I don't have a choice do I?

Hate your tardiness..
Hate your laziness..
hate your ugliness..
Hate your temper..
Hate your jealousy..

Lust
Gluttony
Greed
Sloth
Wrath
Envy
Pride..
All combined into one you are..

Happy Birthday you piece of shit..
The world is so much better without you..

You

I really don't know how I feel about you anymore..
Its like I don't wanna think of you but everytime I see you..
I start to think of you again..

Your eyes are so bright and beautiful..
Your smile hypnotic..
Even your voice alone sounds like music to me..

Everytime your car passes by..my heart skips a beat..
Everytime my phone rings I hope it is you calling..

It feels so impossible yet possible..
So close yet so far..

You are like the rose that I'm afraid to touch coz of the thorns..

I got head over heels over you..
I might have..
Truly,Madly,Deeply..
Fallen for you..

Saturday Outing

Woke up at 6.45 in the morning..
Log on to FB..and then took a bath..
Packed my bag and got ready..
Coz I'm going to FRIM!!

Abt 7.20 Ella called..already outside my house..
In the car there was Cheryl,Melody,and Derek..
Ella's driving..

In the other car there is..
Mable,Moon Hui,Vic and Kenneth..

Reached Frim at abt 7.45..
Looked for parking..
Parked and proceeded to Rover Trail..

Quite an uphill task trekking Rover Trail was..
Literally..
Saw alot of things there..
Saw a monkey,a squirrel, a damn long giant millipede..
A freaking large red ant and a funny roach like insect that rolled into a ball when I touched it..

After the trek..we went to Selayang Mall..
Went to the top floor for badminton..
During the ride up the parking area..
Moon Hui scraped her car against another parked car..
The car had a little damage on the fender..but the driver was visibly shaken..
The badminton court was full so we changed venue to Kepond Badminton Centre..
There..we found out Lee Chong Wei is going to be there later for a press conference..

During the game..Vic smacked his head adn Moon Hui got a panda eye thats to Kenneth's accurate shot..

After the game..we planned to go to Kepong for McD's..
But re-routed to Selayang Mall coz the road back from Kepong McD's was jam packed..

During the jam in Kepong..all were visibly tired..Melody and Cheryl were sleeping soundly in the car..
Ella was looking sleepy and frustrated abt the jam..
Me and Derek were just looking out the window..

Got home at abt 2.30..
That just sums up the whole day's activities..
The night was pretty boring though..
Did not went out but stayed in..

Thanks Ella for ferrying us around Kepong and Selayang..
Next time..when I get my license..
Its my turn to ferry you arround..

Teacher Vs Me

Teachers definition of focus..

F - Fighting spirit

O - Opportunity

C - Confidence/Concentration

U - Understand

S - Success


My definition of focus..

F - f**k

O - OMG!!

C - Cham lor!!

U - uhh *blur face

S - Sei lor!!


Sure sucks to go to exam with my definition of focus..

Speeding

(A girl and guy were speeding over 100 mph on a motorcycle)

Girl: Slowdown. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug. (Girl hugs him)
Guy: Can u take my helmet off and put it on? Its bugging me.

In the paper the next day:
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure.
Two people were on the motorcycle, but only one survived.
The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know.
Instead, he had her say she loved him, felt her hug one last time, then had her wear his helmet so she would live even though it meant he would die.

Song Of The Moment

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush

Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me, just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do??
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl?
Are we just friends? Is there more? Is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever!

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do??
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do??
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain't going away-ay-ay
This crush ain't going away-ay-ay

Going away
Going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

OMFG!!

WHAT THE HELL!!!
This engine won't start..
Its like less than 1 month before SPM..
People are doing their revisions..
While I'm still....zzz..

Is this normal..or is it just me?
FML!

Wish I was living in the second world war now..
So I could just join the army and not worry about a single thing..
Need not worry about love..I will have strong brotherhood bonds in the army..
Need not worry about money..Not much use in the army during a war anyway...
Need not worry about food..I'll just down whatever I can swallow..
Need not worry about future..coz probably I'll die somewhere during the course of the war anyway..
At least I'm fighting for something or someone..
Protect the greater good..
Protect your loved ones..
All that shit..

But I'm not living in the second world war now am I?
So..this engine better start fast..or else..

Boring day

Today's school sucks..
Most of them are absent..
Some of them went to the Nike fitness test or something..
I was left alone in the class..
No one to talk to..
Except Akmal and the gang..

I hope I get the first batch for NS..
Since I already can't go to Shang Hai..
Cause my passport is almost dead..
And my mum did not include me cause I still don't fucking know which batch I am in..

If I get the second batch..then that means my new year celebrations are virtually over..
No one to celebrate with..unless all my friends get the second batch also..
But if they all get the first batch and me second..
LOL~!! Might as well hang myself.. :x

So hope I get the first batch.. *fingers crossed

开不了口

才离开没多久就开始
担心今天的你过的好不好
整个画面是你
想你想到睡不着

嘴嘟嘟那可爱的模样
还有在你身上香香的味道
我的快乐是你
想你想的都会笑

没有你在我有多难熬
(没有你在我有多难熬多烦恼)
没有你烦我有多烦恼
( 没有你烦我有多烦恼多难熬)
穿过云层
我试着努力向你奔跑
爱才送到
你却已在别人怀抱

就是开不了口
让她知道
我一定会呵护着你
也逗你笑
你对我有多重要
我後悔没
让你知道
安静的听你撒娇
看你睡着一直到老

就是开不了口
让她知道
就是那麽简单几句
我办不到
整颗心悬在半空
我只能够远远看着
这些我都做得到
但那个人已经不是我

3 WEEKS!!

3 weeks left!!
Gotta start changing..
Gotta start doing something..
Gotta start looking busy..

3 weeks more..
After that..
Comes SPM..
The bane in my life right now..
The 'passport' of my future..
The first step..
Hope I do well..

After that..
Time to relax..
Have fun with friends..
Go to NS..
Decide on which course to study..
Experience things..
Get my driving license..

After that..
Enter: College life..
New people..
New experience.
Bright future(I hope at least) :P
And try to keep in touch with friends..
Do crazy things together...
Re-live some of our moments together for old times sake..

Until then..my friends..
Lets work hard now..
Its now or never..

Lets hope this is the beginning of a bright future..
For all of us..
Family..friends..acquantainces..

Note to self :
I can't be thinking of you always..
Occasionally..maybe.. :)
But in the future..who knows..

Bored and frustrated

Its Mid-Autumn..
And I'm stuck at home..
With nothing to do...

Too lazy to play games..
Too lazy to study for SPM..
Too lazy to read my novels..
Too lazy to sleep..

I don't know what's hapening to me..
The boredom is slowly killing me ftom the inside..
And if thats not bad enough..
The boredom brings about the thoughts of you..

I'm afraid I'm falling deeper and deeper..
Your smile..
Your laugh..
Your angelic face..
Its driving me crazy..
I'm afraid there's no turning back..

Sometimes..the boredom makes me wanna kill myself..

Insomnia

I never thought that I'd fall in love, love, love, love
But it grew from a simple crush, crush, crush, crush
Being without you girl, I was all messed up, up, up, up
When you walked out, said that you'd had enough-nough-nough-nough

Ah, I just can't go to sleep
Cause it feels like I've fallen for you
It's getting way too deep
And I know that it's love because

These lines keep playing over and over again in my head...

Well not exactly love but..
I don't know what to say anymore..
Now I really don't know what to do..
SHIT!!!

One Month

ONE MONTH LEFT!!
One month till the big exam..
Not quite ready though..
Still haven't decided what course to study..

Time to double the efforts..
Time to go overdrive..

Lately not much happened in school..
Things are still a bit slow..
But I'm pretty sure..things will go hyperdrive soon..

One thing I'm worried about though..
I feel I might be SMITTEN...
Gosh..hope its just a phase and will pass on...

What Makes A Man..

Finally I understand this song..
And I reminds me of someone :)

"What Makes A Man"

This isn't goodbye, even as I watch you leave, this isn't goodbye
I swear I won't cry, even as tears fill my eyes, I swear I won't cry

Any other girl, I'd let you walk away
Any other girl, I'm sure I'd be ok

Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know
So I can get over you

What makes her so right?
Is it the sound of her laugh?
That look in her eyes
When do you decide?
She is the dream that you seek
That force in your life

When you apologize, no matter who was wrong
When you get on your knees if that would bring her home

Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know
So that I can get over you

Other girls will come along, they always do
But what's the point when all I ever want is you, tell me

Tell me what makes a man
Wanna give you all his heart
Smile when you're around
And cry when you're apart
If you know what makes a man
Wanna love you the way I do
Girl you gotta let me know..... (let me know)
Girl you gotta let me know..... (wooo)
So I can get over you

First Day Of School

Damn..
Spent about 2 periods in the school hall for the majlis penutup of bulan merdeka..
Standing for almost 2 periods outside the hall is no joke..
Killing my legs..

Today was quite a laid back day..
Not much teaching..except for physics..
Almost slept then..damn boring just looking at the screen..

I think I found the source of my worries..
Either it is the Graduation Day..
Prom Night..
Or that "THING"..

Hope it is not that "THING"...
Damn tired after tution..
Singning out..

Worries

Shitin' bricks before goin back to school..
What is it that I'm worried about?
Trial results?
Prefect stuff?
I really don't know..
It might be it all..

But my life as a prefect was going along smoothly
Until that fucking person took over and made life hell..
That fucker think just because he did good with a certain uniformed unit that he can do it with the prefect as well..
Well,thanks to him now I'm in shambles..in a position that is between and rock and hard place..
Muthafucker..

Or am I worrying about "SOMETHING ELSE"?!
I hope that it is not that "THING"!!

Schools gonna re-open..
Oh shit..here we go again..

Mid-Autumn Festival

This year..
My neighbours organized a Mid-Autumn Festival Party..
So..
A few friends are cordially invited by yours truly to come and enjoy together..
And the LUCKY few are..
Mable,
Cheryl,
Ella,
Melody,
Chloe,
Vic,
Kenneth,
and a last minute addition..Roy (dude I hope I got your name right :p)


I was in charge of the decorations of the tent..
That was because my mother wanted the party to have some atmosphere..XD
If I could have it my way..I would just leave as it is..
Why you said? Because to me..its the food and company that counts right?
And also not forgetting the bright moon..
Which should be viewed in a slightly dark and open place...
NOT in a bright place (i.e basketball/badminton court)..
Unless you did not know/give a damn about what season or festival to have a party in conjunction with..

The decor works started at 3 something...
Bloody hot time to work if you ask me..
Helped Michael (my neighbour/organizer) to hang up some lanterns..
Some as in the amount that requires so much time that you are standing and being roasted at the same time..

Later Mable came..we started the finishing touches on the decor..the balloons..
While half way through it..
The rest of the gang arrived..excluding Kenneth..
A little while longer..Kenneth arrived..
Tied about 35 balloons to the tent..
Now the tent really has party atmosphere with the lanterns and balloons..

We lighted a few candles and lantern and started to have our dinner..
We were joking all thorugh dinner..
About what I should not say to save the dignity of Kenneth (those present should know what I'm talking about) XDXDXD
Unlike certain people who have no qualms about posting unflattering pictures of people doing unflattering things (i.e. gambling) on their pages..

After the dinner..comes the fun part..
KARAOKE..yep..thats the way it spelled..
NOT KARAOKAE..which sounds retarded..
Haha..this part I really liked..
Because to me..that is a fun thing because not everybody is so good at it..
So we can all laugh at each other..and laugh we did..and laughed like banshees..
Especially *** when she's singing Hokkien..(another censor to protect the dignity of my friends)
This is sure better then listening to plain old party/disco/pub music..
Which actually is pretty good if done by the right person..like an acquaintance of mine HBK..
Not some amateur/wannabe whos trying out the gadgets and took some pic just so he could look cool..

After some really hillarious karaoke moments..
We continued with wishing lanterns 'kong min ten' pardon my pinyin if its wrong..
Please be considerate as I'm Chinese illiterate..
Not like someone whos using English and talking in slangs acting like someone from America..
When that person actually knows shit about the language..
Back to topic..the lanterns were bought by Ella..
This lantern is somewhat like a hot air balloon..albeit a mine one..
The belief is that you write your wishes on the lantern..
Light up a piece of wax on the bottom of it..
The lantern/balloon will carry your wishes up with it to the Gods in the sky...
Which will in turn read your wishes..and grant it..
Too bad Mable had to go home earlier and did not have the chance to see her wishes fly up to the sky..but we took pictures of it and mms-ed it to her..
I wrote my wishes in English and everyone else in Chinese..
They joked that the Gods will not understnad what I wrote =.=
Hey..come on..they are Gods right surely they know anything..because they must be God-like (no pun intended) right?
I hope..(fingers crossed)

After that Chloe went home..
We had tea and mooncakes and chatted..
We talked about life..school..and future...
After that we went in and talked somemore and went to my pc to surf..
Kenneth went home first..
Followed by the rest of the gang..

This sums up the day/night/morning..
Becaouse it started at 5 p.m and they wnet home at about er,m.. 1.30 a.m?
The longest period of time I had friends stay at my home..
They even bought mooncakes for my mum..which surprised my mum..
Because she never received any gifts from my friends before..
I had fun..lots of it..I think this is the best day of this holiday..
I really had to thank my friends who came..
And also to those who choose to come here even after being "invited" to another place..
That proves thy loyalty..and thy loyalty will be highly held and honoured..

Although this party cost big bucks (over RM100 per family)
But it is worth it..since we won;t have to works our ass off to start a fire (not that we don't know how) and get smoked while preparing food..
But that is just for the tent,food,tables,chaors and cutlery...
As for the company of my friends and the time we had?
Priceless.. not worth a few bucks of barbequed shit...
Which the organizer had the cheeck to organize something that he don't have the things he needs and must be borrowed..

I think they should organize events like this more..
Should not shpuld(which also sounds retarded)..
And my friends should also come over more..
Because when they are here..I don't feel lonely..
Thank You guys..
Thanks for coming..
I really had fun..
Thanks again..
Never felt so happy in my life..

If I were to play a song during the course of the party..
That song would have to be B.E.P's 'I Gotta Feeling"
Because I really had a good good night/day/morning..whatever..
You get my point..
Thanks again to you guys..
Friends that made me realize how happy I can be..

Face Drop

And now I see ya face drop
I told you not to leave me alone
and now that i got my own
I see ya face drop
I told you not to count me out

A certain someone has been running amok
Time to keep him in check
Hope he realizes his mistakes and changes..

Hey..
But what do I care..
He can do whatever he wants..
I don't give a fiddler's fart..
But since we've been close once..
I hope he knows..

BACK!!

Its been a loooooonnnnngggggg time...
Almost a year I think..
Wow...

Reasons of absence :
1) Time constraint
2) Laziness
3) Laziness
4) Laziness
5) Lazi..ok I think you get the point..

Reasons of return :
1) Bored
2) Many things happening..
3) To keep someone in check..

Let the posts roll...